life...one huge confusing void...
last few days have been so freaking up and down. its like an emotional and mental rollar coaster I'm on right now. and i hate it. People are jus so picky now a days that it seems everything has to be there way or they complain and bitch about how its not right etc. buts thats not life. Life does revolve around just you. there are 7 billion people on this earth that all live here and all don't do exactly what you say. arg.
i have so much to say but i can't really say it because not sure how to put into words. but in sort, if you don't have something nice to say then don't say it.
IT erks me so bad that I try very hard to please everyone as much as I can. yeah I can't do it to everyone because it just not possible but I try. BUt no, minute i make one mistake out of no where I'm talked about, bashed and complained about and makes no sense. yeah I'm doing not justice complaining on here. But I'm not afraid to talk about it to you.
Blah, let see...So i had a test on tuesday that i didn;t think i was ready for but i managed to get a 24 out or 25 on it and that was cool, then wednesday is my long ass driving day which started ok, till i get back to the garage and i have a flat so i spent my entire break getting that fixed and taken care of. and spending $150 to do that. then I drove a late night shift for a friend, but learned that he just wanted to go the carolina game...wasn't too happy. then find out that i "eveidently missed a stop" so i got called out about that, which just sucks cause I'm trying my hardest to not screw up this job. Then thursday I woke up on little sleep drove for someone else and then took another test that i thought i was ready for and turned out i wasn't. then drove home and just kinda crashed once i got there. Friday was alright. Did my thing at jordan talked to my boss at the bulls and got my schedule worked out for them. Which I am excited about...just wish i could just be doing that instead of everything else rght now. then I got home to change my oil in the car and realize i had the wrong oil filter size so I had to get my marine buds to come take me to get the right sized one. More money spent. Do that and hang out. Go to the Lotus dealership in Durham which was a nice change and made my day better. from there the day as alright. hung out with my marine buds and emily welch and ross and had a fun night. This morning was decent, but the drive home sucks. I dunno don't enjoy driving my car long distances any more lol. come home and just crash again. then wake up to people talking about me etc. so kinda put me in a bad mood and gave me a huge headache which is where I am right now. and no one wants to hang out or what not So I'm at home bored...yeah fun times...Honestly just wanna die right now. ok not really but not in a good mood.
comments are welcome...more later
i have so much to say but i can't really say it because not sure how to put into words. but in sort, if you don't have something nice to say then don't say it.
IT erks me so bad that I try very hard to please everyone as much as I can. yeah I can't do it to everyone because it just not possible but I try. BUt no, minute i make one mistake out of no where I'm talked about, bashed and complained about and makes no sense. yeah I'm doing not justice complaining on here. But I'm not afraid to talk about it to you.
Blah, let see...So i had a test on tuesday that i didn;t think i was ready for but i managed to get a 24 out or 25 on it and that was cool, then wednesday is my long ass driving day which started ok, till i get back to the garage and i have a flat so i spent my entire break getting that fixed and taken care of. and spending $150 to do that. then I drove a late night shift for a friend, but learned that he just wanted to go the carolina game...wasn't too happy. then find out that i "eveidently missed a stop" so i got called out about that, which just sucks cause I'm trying my hardest to not screw up this job. Then thursday I woke up on little sleep drove for someone else and then took another test that i thought i was ready for and turned out i wasn't. then drove home and just kinda crashed once i got there. Friday was alright. Did my thing at jordan talked to my boss at the bulls and got my schedule worked out for them. Which I am excited about...just wish i could just be doing that instead of everything else rght now. then I got home to change my oil in the car and realize i had the wrong oil filter size so I had to get my marine buds to come take me to get the right sized one. More money spent. Do that and hang out. Go to the Lotus dealership in Durham which was a nice change and made my day better. from there the day as alright. hung out with my marine buds and emily welch and ross and had a fun night. This morning was decent, but the drive home sucks. I dunno don't enjoy driving my car long distances any more lol. come home and just crash again. then wake up to people talking about me etc. so kinda put me in a bad mood and gave me a huge headache which is where I am right now. and no one wants to hang out or what not So I'm at home bored...yeah fun times...Honestly just wanna die right now. ok not really but not in a good mood.
comments are welcome...more later