cut it up. hey, you find out if you know, if you know what im saying. ...?
why did i just realize - ? - i cant change who i am, no one can change who they are. i cant act like im not me. i cant do things i wouldnt do if it wasnt for others influencing me to think that what they do is 'cool' or 'then ill make more friends' or 'people will like me more.' i cant do that. and why did i just realize it like right now?
i dont know i hate shallow people. by that i mean, the opposite of deep. has anyone noticed that. i know a lot of deep people; they dont have to be super-smart at all or even artistic or wtvr, but they are deep in different ways. and i dont like 'un-deep' people. whenever i talk about people i dont like i always sound like the biggest bitch. do you understand that? i do. i sound like such a bitch. and the reason why is cuz i chose how i want to live and who i want to trust, love, be friends with, etc. and for me i dont get in drama with bitches and fights and crap so i dont run around like in seventh grade talking shit about people i 'HATE' because 'they did this to mee' and 'i didnt do this to theeemmm.' so in that case, i dont have anyone like that to 'hate' so like, now, i just basically, know who i want to trust. love, and be friends with. and that makes me sound like a total bitch whenever i talk about those non- people. get it? its true.
also i, i hate jealousy. i hate that dumb gosh darn word and why in the world it was created. wtf?! what an idiot!? thats so messed up. did he[she] just want to ruin everyone's life? fucka. i hate jealousy. it sucks. its the worst word. so horrible. at least most other words are true. besides like pretty and flirt and stuff. stupid jealousy is fake, its dumb, it has no reason to exist. it exists to make people sit around and brood about 'what they dont have' and 'what other people do have.' wtf is that!? thats so dumb. dumb jealousy and the dumb frickin dictionary of useless, parasitic words.
jealousy
pretty
flirt
want[not fake and wrong, but shouldnt exist. other words should be used and everyone should wonder 'what word describes this feeelingggg??']
cute
smart
art
gay
hetero
sex
beautiful
dumb
stupid
happy[should be seperated into like 5 different words for what it means]
good
bad
etc....
.
dude im so drained, fatigued, tired, etc... right now so yeah. im not a genious. but that list goes on and on. i could sit here and contemplate mroe poo words but. that would be depressing. and im so frickin draaaiinnnedddd.
im listening to hilary duff. actually im playing up my playlist of all my songs. nOnE EMo!! PshAaAAaAaAAAAAAA
and yeah. i dont know. i shoudl really thank the people who have been good for me and really showed me what love is. i woudlnt know love if it wasnt for them[you]. yeah, i really do know love. gosh, what would it feel like to have neevr known love in your whole existence. oh my gosh. i dont think id be able to live. but then again i wouldnt know what i was missing. but id still be a screwed up kid, so yeah i be depressed and stuff. agh im so grateful. i need to show it more. like in life, period. period, period, period. i need to do something about all the good stuff i have in my life. gosh im so frickin blessed. i could go on and on and freakin cry. aww. ok. well i got a webcam lol. hope you like pictures. i hope to not become obsessed. omg how weird is that my whooole playlist is playing, and right now it happens to be on breathe on me. and i just had that for the last entry lol. thats crazy wizeird. but not really that weird at all compared to alllllllll the fing stuff thats been happenning to me lately; or fi phillips from so weird on disney. LOL. HA. you love it? you love it- you love me. ! yay i can say fing now and i said it! i love that word! <3 boohooo haaaaaaa oooooooo
When the world wasn't upside down, I could take all the time I had.
But I'm not gona wait, when a moment can vanish so fast.
Because every kiss is a kiss you can never get back.
Lift Me Up. In Your Eyes. If you told me this is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right.
I've been waiting forever for this.
This is the night.
When the answer to all of my dreams is as close as a Touch Away,
Why Am I Here Holding Back What I'm Trying To Say?
Lift Me Up. In Your Eyes. If you told me this is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right.
Hold Me Close To Your Heart. I would go with you to Ends Of The Earth and we'll fly.
I've been waiting forever for this.
This is the night.
This Is The Night When We Capture Forever And All Our Tomorrows Begin.
After tongiht, we will Never Be Lonely Again...
Lift Me Up. In Your Eyes. If you told me this is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right.
I've been waiting forever for this.
This is the night.
Because every kiss is a kiss you can never get back, ive been waiting forever for this - the answer to all of my dreams. forever... this.
i hope my friend isnt so un-deep as i think. elkh.
i dont know i hate shallow people. by that i mean, the opposite of deep. has anyone noticed that. i know a lot of deep people; they dont have to be super-smart at all or even artistic or wtvr, but they are deep in different ways. and i dont like 'un-deep' people. whenever i talk about people i dont like i always sound like the biggest bitch. do you understand that? i do. i sound like such a bitch. and the reason why is cuz i chose how i want to live and who i want to trust, love, be friends with, etc. and for me i dont get in drama with bitches and fights and crap so i dont run around like in seventh grade talking shit about people i 'HATE' because 'they did this to mee' and 'i didnt do this to theeemmm.' so in that case, i dont have anyone like that to 'hate' so like, now, i just basically, know who i want to trust. love, and be friends with. and that makes me sound like a total bitch whenever i talk about those non- people. get it? its true.
also i, i hate jealousy. i hate that dumb gosh darn word and why in the world it was created. wtf?! what an idiot!? thats so messed up. did he[she] just want to ruin everyone's life? fucka. i hate jealousy. it sucks. its the worst word. so horrible. at least most other words are true. besides like pretty and flirt and stuff. stupid jealousy is fake, its dumb, it has no reason to exist. it exists to make people sit around and brood about 'what they dont have' and 'what other people do have.' wtf is that!? thats so dumb. dumb jealousy and the dumb frickin dictionary of useless, parasitic words.
jealousy
pretty
flirt
want[not fake and wrong, but shouldnt exist. other words should be used and everyone should wonder 'what word describes this feeelingggg??']
cute
smart
art
gay
hetero
sex
beautiful
dumb
stupid
happy[should be seperated into like 5 different words for what it means]
good
bad
etc....
.
dude im so drained, fatigued, tired, etc... right now so yeah. im not a genious. but that list goes on and on. i could sit here and contemplate mroe poo words but. that would be depressing. and im so frickin draaaiinnnedddd.
im listening to hilary duff. actually im playing up my playlist of all my songs. nOnE EMo!! PshAaAAaAaAAAAAAA
and yeah. i dont know. i shoudl really thank the people who have been good for me and really showed me what love is. i woudlnt know love if it wasnt for them[you]. yeah, i really do know love. gosh, what would it feel like to have neevr known love in your whole existence. oh my gosh. i dont think id be able to live. but then again i wouldnt know what i was missing. but id still be a screwed up kid, so yeah i be depressed and stuff. agh im so grateful. i need to show it more. like in life, period. period, period, period. i need to do something about all the good stuff i have in my life. gosh im so frickin blessed. i could go on and on and freakin cry. aww. ok. well i got a webcam lol. hope you like pictures. i hope to not become obsessed. omg how weird is that my whooole playlist is playing, and right now it happens to be on breathe on me. and i just had that for the last entry lol. thats crazy wizeird. but not really that weird at all compared to alllllllll the fing stuff thats been happenning to me lately; or fi phillips from so weird on disney. LOL. HA. you love it? you love it- you love me. ! yay i can say fing now and i said it! i love that word! <3 boohooo haaaaaaa oooooooo
When the world wasn't upside down, I could take all the time I had.
But I'm not gona wait, when a moment can vanish so fast.
Because every kiss is a kiss you can never get back.
Lift Me Up. In Your Eyes. If you told me this is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right.
I've been waiting forever for this.
This is the night.
When the answer to all of my dreams is as close as a Touch Away,
Why Am I Here Holding Back What I'm Trying To Say?
Lift Me Up. In Your Eyes. If you told me this is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right.
Hold Me Close To Your Heart. I would go with you to Ends Of The Earth and we'll fly.
I've been waiting forever for this.
This is the night.
This Is The Night When We Capture Forever And All Our Tomorrows Begin.
After tongiht, we will Never Be Lonely Again...
Lift Me Up. In Your Eyes. If you told me this is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right.
I've been waiting forever for this.
This is the night.
Because every kiss is a kiss you can never get back, ive been waiting forever for this - the answer to all of my dreams. forever... this.
i hope my friend isnt so un-deep as i think. elkh.