This a lot, even for me
Army Boy the Magnificent Asshole solicited me for relationship advice and I shot off a wordy fuck-you response which prompted him to make a clarifying statement that I actually responded to in a not-so-mean manner, but still ended with a big fuck-you response.
The murkiness of the above sentences testifies to the continuing strength of my fury. It never faded. That makes me feel weird about myself, makes me feel like a bad person. Turn the other cheek and all that crap, right? I want to because I know that's what people should do.
I haven't talked to him in over a year, maybe two years. I can't keep track. So how is it that the anger comes back so perfectly as if the last time he contacted me was just yesterday? I could kick his teeth in with this kind of anger. Good thing for him that he's in California... as far as I know. Now my adrenaline is riding high and all I want to do is scream and punch pillows and wish for those two years of my life back. I can't calm down and go back to what I was doing before I read the email. My body is buzzing with the desire to destroy something.
The murkiness of the above sentences testifies to the continuing strength of my fury. It never faded. That makes me feel weird about myself, makes me feel like a bad person. Turn the other cheek and all that crap, right? I want to because I know that's what people should do.
I haven't talked to him in over a year, maybe two years. I can't keep track. So how is it that the anger comes back so perfectly as if the last time he contacted me was just yesterday? I could kick his teeth in with this kind of anger. Good thing for him that he's in California... as far as I know. Now my adrenaline is riding high and all I want to do is scream and punch pillows and wish for those two years of my life back. I can't calm down and go back to what I was doing before I read the email. My body is buzzing with the desire to destroy something.