eff this
i am so done...this is so gay. dude im just so tired of this its not even funny ne more. u can or u cant, im hopin u cant, casue im tired of this effin shit
okay so yea went to enp last night ah what a night....natalie choked on a noodle singin the noodle slurp and also choked on her straw, not sure how that is possible but she did it and, sean stared at me all night and guess what...i wasnt even paying attention, the girls were and kept tellin me. ah i didnt want to know...just becuase i feel bad that i really dont want ne thing to do with him..yikes that was harsh but true.
u know if u are really in love with someone it takes time to get over them. alot of time. and friends. u feel like there is something missin in ur life but sometimes u have to give it away. if u love someone so much and it seems at the time that they dont want ur love, well u need to step back and look. "he/she doesnt love me right now, they love someone else and if i love them so much i would give them ne thing to make them happy. and since i love them that much and they love someone else i will let him go. then he will know thati love him that much to see him happy with someone else"
thats the way u have to look at it. if its meant to be and when the time is ready then it will happen, u will either get back together or not. its a hard process but u have to do it. but u cant be waitin around like its gonna happenin 2 years. trust me on that. it took me this long to figure that out.
but actually on my part i think its time for me to let go all together, maybe im finally seeing that im not meant to be with him or maybe its just one of those days. who knows but yea i had to get that out of my head. so ne ways back to my story.
so yea i caught him a couple times and its not like he looked but he kept looking and kept looking back. lol he rolled his eyes alot, guess i looked cute or something...who knows but the feelin was great. its was like hahaha look, u are finally realizing that u lost something so great and u know what...he is. i tried and tried and never once got his attention. ive been there before and all he does is ignore me, that kinda hurt but i knew he would so something stupid like that.
but last nigth he wouldnt stop staring, he kept commin around and i really wasnt paying too much attention to him. he was at the other table and i made it loud enough to let everyone know including him and his buddy that was talkin to us that i went on a date thursday night at had the time of my life. it was awsome. but im not gonna really get into that. so yea life right now is treatin me great.
THANK YOU ROCCO FOR SOME AWESOME ADVICE. it really works. yea u hear me talk about him alot in here...he is my BEST FRIEND of all times and my cousin.
i think ther is a few parties ths weekend that i might be interested in goin to so ill have to see whats goin on with that. i wanna go but who knows~
wow the rain friday night was crazy-ness! liek really, i kept thinkin we might have to gather the animals together again and help noah build another ark. im just so glad that its over! well im outtie of here kiddos. ill talk to u all later
oh yea~ THANKS FOR LISTENING