my house has no living room lights because we do not have light bulbs for them and we also have no toilet paper...It's pretty sad when I have to whipe my ass with kleenex because I can't afford toilet paper.
I never know how to answer that. Things could be better and they could be worse...I feel like shit today but I'm about to eat if I don't get sidetracked and forget. That's been happening lately. I'm so upset with myself because I was doing so well with all my eating disorder stuff and now not so much and it scares me but I'm starting to like it again and I don't want to I just want to be normal. For a while it was just that I could ignore all the little e.d voices in my head and now I can't again. I think it's all this goddamn stress...financial stress, school stress this is what it does to me.
Well, you asked how picky I am? I'm not too bad. Looks aren't all that important to me and I don't care what others think about her as long as I like her. And when you ask my friends what my type is I gaurantee they'll say "girl" lol because I like girls a lot...how they look anyway...Of all types. But the truth is there aren't many girls I want to date...Their personality has to kick some ass and I always observe a girl before I ask her out. Well, the girl at the bar is the first girl I've ever really tried to ask out (beside Misty but we were friends for a long time before I even told her I liked her) I'm shy...and I've been hurt a lot so I have to be careful...and I'm not a relationship kind of person which I know makes me sound like a whore but I don't care.
it sounds af if you just want to live life to the fullest lol i used to be like that untill i meet janelle now i can not get enough of her i lve her way too much and i never want to lose her she is my ideal type which is scary in a way but it make me happy lol here i go talking about me again but yeah...
about the eating thing i know where your comming from look i don't say this allot but sometimes i would just up and forget that i forgot to eat and i never really cared but i don't gain anything even if i do really eat lol but it's all about telling your self NO!! saying to your bad habit and keep saying it lol i had to get over it by eating 4 small meals a day and now i ea more than an cow lol if i could ha ha and being vegan that says allot :-P so why you so stress about school and work.....
Well school is just stressful because it's a lot of work and I haven't been in school in 2 years. And now I have to give a speech tomorrow and I just found out about it today because I missed last weeks speech class because my mom wouldn't take me because the roads were bad which also made me get a zero on my last speech I was suppose to give. I was so pissed and I told her I would get a zero. Work is only stressful because their not giving me hours and I have bills to pay and then my mom asks me for gas money because of all the trips to my school she has to make. I said I would but I can't even afford to whipe my ass right now! Also my mom has to give up her house and she is moving to a trailer park that won't allow big dogs and she originally asked me if I would take our dog Roxi if she couldn't have dogs where she was moving and now she is saying that she might just give it to a rescue place. Can you fucking believe that! She would rather give our dog to complete strangers than me. She wouldn't let me have any pets when I lived with her either because she thought I wouldn't take care of them.
Anyway enough ranting. Going back to the gay bar tomorrow. My roommate wants to set me up with this cute bicurious girl she met on myspace...lol I'm not sure about women who don't even know their orientation...
yeah i agree on that number lol bi are difficult now a bi curious well i don't even want to go there lol sorry about school and yes that is fucked up about ur mom and well atleast you have a job it is so hard here i have no job...
Well, you asked how picky I am? I'm not too bad. Looks aren't all that important to me and I don't care what others think about her as long as I like her. And when you ask my friends what my type is I gaurantee they'll say "girl" lol because I like girls a lot...how they look anyway...Of all types. But the truth is there aren't many girls I want to date...Their personality has to kick some ass and I always observe a girl before I ask her out. Well, the girl at the bar is the first girl I've ever really tried to ask out (beside Misty but we were friends for a long time before I even told her I liked her) I'm shy...and I've been hurt a lot so I have to be careful...and I'm not a relationship kind of person which I know makes me sound like a whore but I don't care.
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about the eating thing i know where your comming from look i don't say this allot but sometimes i would just up and forget that i forgot to eat and i never really cared but i don't gain anything even if i do really eat lol but it's all about telling your self NO!! saying to your bad habit and keep saying it lol i had to get over it by eating 4 small meals a day and now i ea more than an cow lol if i could ha ha and being vegan that says allot :-P so why you so stress about school and work.....
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Work is only stressful because their not giving me hours and I have bills to pay and then my mom asks me for gas money because of all the trips to my school she has to make. I said I would but I can't even afford to whipe my ass right now!
Also my mom has to give up her house and she is moving to a trailer park that won't allow big dogs and she originally asked me if I would take our dog Roxi if she couldn't have dogs where she was moving and now she is saying that she might just give it to a rescue place. Can you fucking believe that! She would rather give our dog to complete strangers than me. She wouldn't let me have any pets when I lived with her either because she thought I wouldn't take care of them.
Anyway enough ranting. Going back to the gay bar tomorrow. My roommate wants to set me up with this cute bicurious girl she met on myspace...lol I'm not sure about women who don't even know their orientation...
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