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well its been a while since my last update. i am back at harkins, i had my first shift yesterday. all i did was stay upstairs and do paperwork and then i talked ms stewart into letting me do csr for charlie haha i love that movie. i have 11 more times to see it till i break my pirates record. and rich told me yesterday that the libertine, a movie that i have been waiting for forever to come here cause it came out last april in europe, it comes out on my bday and then 2 days later corpse bride comes out. and my mom will be here and the week before that we're going to disneyland, just me and my mom. its gonna be great.
not much has happened really besides going back to harkins. i don't have to think about the kevin situation anymore, so thats a huge releif i have. and for now, i'm just done with guys. no guys = no hurting. so anyways, thats pretty much put me in a weird mood lately. not bad, but not good either. cause that was like 7 months of just thinking about the same person and caring so much about 1 person, and then in a few days its just gone. its hard to get used to, but i'll be fine. i'm just a little different thats all. i've sort of gone back to not talking much and i have wanted to be alone lately, except for hanging out with rich the chris's and sara, i've just spent alot of time alone in my room watching movies. me and melissa were in a fight for a few days but we made up, and everythings ok now. shes really a great person to talk to about stuff, we never run ou of things to talk to. i just hope she realizes that someday she will find someone for her and he'll be worth the wait. cause i've finally realized that and it helped me put alot of things into perspective. i guess i am just good at losing people, i don't think too much about it. and i fidgure that if they really want me in their life, they will make the effort also intstead of it always being me working at it. doing that in these last few weeks has really shown me who my real firends are. rich, chris h, chris s, sara, melissa, andrew, and eric have all really been there and helped me from falling into that stupid depression. i'm too young to be worrying abou this crap anyways, besides there's nothing to worry about anyways. people this age always break up in the end, and i'd rather be alone and have a bunch of friends that i know will be there instead of just one person that i know will end up breaking my heart. so for now, i'm happy :) and i'm almost back to normal, just a little changed from this whole experience
i <3 my friends
not much has happened really besides going back to harkins. i don't have to think about the kevin situation anymore, so thats a huge releif i have. and for now, i'm just done with guys. no guys = no hurting. so anyways, thats pretty much put me in a weird mood lately. not bad, but not good either. cause that was like 7 months of just thinking about the same person and caring so much about 1 person, and then in a few days its just gone. its hard to get used to, but i'll be fine. i'm just a little different thats all. i've sort of gone back to not talking much and i have wanted to be alone lately, except for hanging out with rich the chris's and sara, i've just spent alot of time alone in my room watching movies. me and melissa were in a fight for a few days but we made up, and everythings ok now. shes really a great person to talk to about stuff, we never run ou of things to talk to. i just hope she realizes that someday she will find someone for her and he'll be worth the wait. cause i've finally realized that and it helped me put alot of things into perspective. i guess i am just good at losing people, i don't think too much about it. and i fidgure that if they really want me in their life, they will make the effort also intstead of it always being me working at it. doing that in these last few weeks has really shown me who my real firends are. rich, chris h, chris s, sara, melissa, andrew, and eric have all really been there and helped me from falling into that stupid depression. i'm too young to be worrying abou this crap anyways, besides there's nothing to worry about anyways. people this age always break up in the end, and i'd rather be alone and have a bunch of friends that i know will be there instead of just one person that i know will end up breaking my heart. so for now, i'm happy :) and i'm almost back to normal, just a little changed from this whole experience
i <3 my friends