time machines.....
Have you ever had that feeling that you wished you went into a time machine and warned yourself about your future? or go back in time to change something? Work hard now before it comes and bites you in your butt.... It would reduce regrets and sleepless nights and just make life easier. I probably should be working now and not writing in here because it'll probably come and kick and bite my butt in the near future. Procrastination is a b*tch... so is karma, even though i don't believe in it, or at least i think i don't believe in it. I don't understand what is happening with me. I guess its because I'm used to coming out well and now that it didn't i wish it weren't so hard for me to deal with it. It's just what happened to me is so traumatizing, well only to me... i'm sure i'm just making a big deal about it and it just all goes back to procrastinating and wasting time or thinking i can do it without "worrying" too much about it. i just wish that when i had tried it out it wouldn't have worked so that i wouldn't have been so confident that it was going to work in the real event.
i'm wondering when i'll get over this. Thats all i've been thinking about for the past 2 days. yesterday i thought i was tired and i tried to fall asleep on the couch and i couldn't! i usually fall asleep in like 2 seconds.
AY.... i hope i get over this sooooon.... but i dont even know what to do about it.... i want a time machine and change this past week.... i wouldn't be feeling like i do now. I don't think i've ever been so mad/sad in my life... LOL... maybe i should just laugh it off... i should go to a comedy show or go dancing and have fun. Maybe i should do something adventurous or just keep myself busy so that i forget about it.
Don't worry guys, this isn't anything MAJOR... I just need to learn to live and deal with it.... don't worry, i'm not going suicidal or anything hahaha... oh my goodness, i dont even want to think about it if someone did that because of the same reason, oy thats depressing.
I need a hug or something.... a couple smiles and a nice cup of coffee.
At least Christmas break is almost around the corner and this time just makes me feel all good inside. these are really happy times and everyone is just cheery and warm.
i'm wondering when i'll get over this. Thats all i've been thinking about for the past 2 days. yesterday i thought i was tired and i tried to fall asleep on the couch and i couldn't! i usually fall asleep in like 2 seconds.
AY.... i hope i get over this sooooon.... but i dont even know what to do about it.... i want a time machine and change this past week.... i wouldn't be feeling like i do now. I don't think i've ever been so mad/sad in my life... LOL... maybe i should just laugh it off... i should go to a comedy show or go dancing and have fun. Maybe i should do something adventurous or just keep myself busy so that i forget about it.
Don't worry guys, this isn't anything MAJOR... I just need to learn to live and deal with it.... don't worry, i'm not going suicidal or anything hahaha... oh my goodness, i dont even want to think about it if someone did that because of the same reason, oy thats depressing.
I need a hug or something.... a couple smiles and a nice cup of coffee.
At least Christmas break is almost around the corner and this time just makes me feel all good inside. these are really happy times and everyone is just cheery and warm.