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As you grow older, you'll find the only things you regret are the things you didn't do. ~Zachary Scott
I really hope this doesn't happen to me. I sometimes feel that I'm not adventurous enough. i hide under my parent's wings too much and sometimes i just wish i could learn to be independent, learn to let go, learn to accomplish things on my own. But its so hard! I just want the easy way through life. I mean, i see the difference between my parent's youth and mine. they struggled to get to this country. they set goals for themselves and accomplished them. they had their ups and downs but yet they are still happy. i think they just don't want me to go through what they did. they want me to have all the things without suffering too much. is that what it is to be spoiled?
my parents are a contradiction too. they say that i should learn to do things on my own but when i go and do something they over-protect me and they take over. what will happen when i move out? when i have my own family? will i do the same to my kids? i hope not. i mean, i love my parents to death, but why is it that i feel i'm not ready to do things on my own?
i've been thinking of transfering to UF in about a year but i'm scared. scared to be on my own. scared of failing. why am i so scared of the future?
i just hope that when i get older i'll be happy with all the decisions i made in life. with how everything worked out.
i need to come out from under the rock and learn to be happy with all the decisions i make, good or bad. i need to do things that set me free! things that let me fly and express myself to the world!
is that too much to ask?
I really hope this doesn't happen to me. I sometimes feel that I'm not adventurous enough. i hide under my parent's wings too much and sometimes i just wish i could learn to be independent, learn to let go, learn to accomplish things on my own. But its so hard! I just want the easy way through life. I mean, i see the difference between my parent's youth and mine. they struggled to get to this country. they set goals for themselves and accomplished them. they had their ups and downs but yet they are still happy. i think they just don't want me to go through what they did. they want me to have all the things without suffering too much. is that what it is to be spoiled?
my parents are a contradiction too. they say that i should learn to do things on my own but when i go and do something they over-protect me and they take over. what will happen when i move out? when i have my own family? will i do the same to my kids? i hope not. i mean, i love my parents to death, but why is it that i feel i'm not ready to do things on my own?
i've been thinking of transfering to UF in about a year but i'm scared. scared to be on my own. scared of failing. why am i so scared of the future?
i just hope that when i get older i'll be happy with all the decisions i made in life. with how everything worked out.
i need to come out from under the rock and learn to be happy with all the decisions i make, good or bad. i need to do things that set me free! things that let me fly and express myself to the world!
is that too much to ask?