Shove me in the shallow water
I've been having some pretty intense moments of clarity lately.
One, where I more deeply understood my generalist nature, was interesting. I've always known that I am a generalist - which manifests in me getting bored easily - but have always struggled to really understand how that can be when in many ways I know so many specialist things. I work in a specialized industry and know an ridiculous amount about it, I tend to have all sorts of minutia floating around in my head and I seem to be good at that sort of stuff. However, I think what it is, is that I'm I guess what I'd call (with as little ego intended as possible) a "high-level" generalist. Yes, I can learn all the teensy tiny details about a subject but then I still get bored and need to get my fingers into something else after a while.
The other thing that seems to be crystallizing nicely is the overall contentment with my life. Sometimes I have moments where I can hardly believe I'm living the life I am, and if you asked me two years ago where I'd be now there's no way I could have guessed, and yet, here I am. It's a funny feeling to be able to take inspiration from your own life and ability to change. I mean, I'm sure everyone has something they can point to that brought home the power human beings have over their own lives - perhaps someone who quit smoking and then became a marathon runner, or a friend who lost weight and came out of their shell or something that signaled that it is possible and that real people can do it - but I think it might be odd that I can look back on my own changes and be inspired by how far I've come... but then again, perhaps not... are other people inspired by themselves sometimes?
Ha! But in case you're thinking that sounds a little too hunky dory or in some way preachy don't think I don't have crappy stuff going on too. From the waste of time course I'm in, to a complete fucktard I have to deal with in my year end project group in said waste of time course, or my increasing malaise at work... I guess the thing of it is, all of that is okay because I know it can all change.
One, where I more deeply understood my generalist nature, was interesting. I've always known that I am a generalist - which manifests in me getting bored easily - but have always struggled to really understand how that can be when in many ways I know so many specialist things. I work in a specialized industry and know an ridiculous amount about it, I tend to have all sorts of minutia floating around in my head and I seem to be good at that sort of stuff. However, I think what it is, is that I'm I guess what I'd call (with as little ego intended as possible) a "high-level" generalist. Yes, I can learn all the teensy tiny details about a subject but then I still get bored and need to get my fingers into something else after a while.
The other thing that seems to be crystallizing nicely is the overall contentment with my life. Sometimes I have moments where I can hardly believe I'm living the life I am, and if you asked me two years ago where I'd be now there's no way I could have guessed, and yet, here I am. It's a funny feeling to be able to take inspiration from your own life and ability to change. I mean, I'm sure everyone has something they can point to that brought home the power human beings have over their own lives - perhaps someone who quit smoking and then became a marathon runner, or a friend who lost weight and came out of their shell or something that signaled that it is possible and that real people can do it - but I think it might be odd that I can look back on my own changes and be inspired by how far I've come... but then again, perhaps not... are other people inspired by themselves sometimes?
Ha! But in case you're thinking that sounds a little too hunky dory or in some way preachy don't think I don't have crappy stuff going on too. From the waste of time course I'm in, to a complete fucktard I have to deal with in my year end project group in said waste of time course, or my increasing malaise at work... I guess the thing of it is, all of that is okay because I know it can all change.