WITH THE LEVEL OF PAIN I REACHED MONDAY
- my entire nerve system damage from Chemo and radiation, had decided to get together and have a party in my left foot.
I don`t remember pain ever hurting than this - I know I repress pain from before, but right now the pain is so bad, that I actually starts to understand, why some people will selfharm, just to find a pain that they can control........
Today I felt a bit better and did a little housework. It was fine.
Then I stumpled over a washcloth on the floor, - hitting it with my left foot - and it hurt so much that I just wanted to scream...
Stumpling over a washcloth and make pain worse - only I can do that, right ??
I don`t remember pain ever hurting than this - I know I repress pain from before, but right now the pain is so bad, that I actually starts to understand, why some people will selfharm, just to find a pain that they can control........
Today I felt a bit better and did a little housework. It was fine.
Then I stumpled over a washcloth on the floor, - hitting it with my left foot - and it hurt so much that I just wanted to scream...
Stumpling over a washcloth and make pain worse - only I can do that, right ??