A is for Aisle, B is for Bdellium
So... my car is still stuck in 4th and I'm still driving it. Every time I get in it I get bad anxiety because we need to pay the taxes on it and I think my insurance expired because we're poor. IT COSTS TOO MUCH MONEY TO OWN A CAR! I only drive if I'm going to work or taking Shawn to work. Only important places that we have to go or else we lose everything! But it still scares the crap out of me! I hope Adelynn comes up with something soon. I feel bad asking her all the time, because I hate bothering people, but WE NEEEEED A CAR!
Lightning is about to have another litter of kittens. People keep leaving her outside and she gets pregnant before we can get her fixed. I know you can still get her fixed but I cant bring myself to do that. I'd feel wrong! That isn't nature. If she miscarried I would feel sad but not horrible and responsible. It would be nature taking its course. If I were the one to pay to have her kittens killed... cause that's what it would feel like.
Shawn wants her to have her kittens outside (already a bunch of stray kittens everywhere....). I want her to have them in here and I want to take care of them. I cant, its too much, but I wish I could. Idk what to do. And everyone keeps telling me "she's just a cat, they're just cats" BUT I CANT HELP IT! You watch something cute and innocent die and tell me its just a fucking cat.
I don't want any more cats damn it!
On a lighter note, I'm going to go download demos on the 360! Fun fun!?
Lightning is about to have another litter of kittens. People keep leaving her outside and she gets pregnant before we can get her fixed. I know you can still get her fixed but I cant bring myself to do that. I'd feel wrong! That isn't nature. If she miscarried I would feel sad but not horrible and responsible. It would be nature taking its course. If I were the one to pay to have her kittens killed... cause that's what it would feel like.
Shawn wants her to have her kittens outside (already a bunch of stray kittens everywhere....). I want her to have them in here and I want to take care of them. I cant, its too much, but I wish I could. Idk what to do. And everyone keeps telling me "she's just a cat, they're just cats" BUT I CANT HELP IT! You watch something cute and innocent die and tell me its just a fucking cat.
I don't want any more cats damn it!
On a lighter note, I'm going to go download demos on the 360! Fun fun!?