It's just, for the first time, I feel WICKED...
so i went to dinner with Colin and Becca tonight, and they BOTH were informing me that my behavior the last week was ok. i'm still a little shocked at myself, since I have never been/felt this way...EVER! He is thoughtful and kind and sweet and not ever what i thought i deserved. Colin says give him a week and he;ll come around. I dont know, my cynical side, or whats left of it, is saying not to let my guard down, because who knows what'll happen. but maybe it's time for me to allow things to be, and not constantly be trying to manipulate them. i need to put myself out there and see what happens and take a risk...
...when hes not around that thought scares me. when he is around, it's all i want
...when hes not around that thought scares me. when he is around, it's all i want