Last Week
Brian was here all last week.
We just spend time doing life together, which was what was so so needed.
I am sick of the chaos -- we had one day where I thought things were over -- but then we got through that. I am stupid & scared and it is so BIG that I keep thinking it has to be everything or done.
But then we fit nicely together on the couch and talk about budgets and the mormon thrift store makes him need to kiss me. And his heart is so fucking beautiful. And it's hurt but its good and big and strong.
And maybe he doesn't yet get why i do what i do, but he kisses my cat and rubs my feet and we brainstorm about how we can earn money if we live in the cabin in Pescadero.
He'll be here, with me, to live, soon. 2 months or so more.
We just spend time doing life together, which was what was so so needed.
I am sick of the chaos -- we had one day where I thought things were over -- but then we got through that. I am stupid & scared and it is so BIG that I keep thinking it has to be everything or done.
But then we fit nicely together on the couch and talk about budgets and the mormon thrift store makes him need to kiss me. And his heart is so fucking beautiful. And it's hurt but its good and big and strong.
And maybe he doesn't yet get why i do what i do, but he kisses my cat and rubs my feet and we brainstorm about how we can earn money if we live in the cabin in Pescadero.
He'll be here, with me, to live, soon. 2 months or so more.