no really kill me PLEASE
So, i really hate it here. College that is. Its not so much the school its so much the PEOPLE
i hate it! and my dad keeps nagging me about god who knows what and its just ANNOYING!
ahhhhhhh
and this isnt really making me feel better! eveybody else is like lalala happy but i can't like like...show that im like going sad or what not and i dont want to talk about because nobody will understand. nobody....really.
lol but its fun to watch my friends.....theres so many drama its like watching a tv show....
they dont noticed me but i think i like it this way.
and its ok when everybody has a guy and i dont ...and i dont mean like boyfriend but like
as crush wise...i'm advoiding that for many reasons cause i know already that they will never like me.
if i learn anything in high school...guys dont dig me at all
1. asian
2. high pitch voice
3. annoying
4. ugly as heck
5. short
6. i have no personailty
7. i'm not mature
8. not smart
9. i dress funny
10. i'm way to shy
so...yeah...10 reasons and its ok at least i know whats wrong with me eh?
this is why i'll stick in my pretend world where billie joe or david or elijah or something can like
be my boyfriend with ice cream with glow in the dark boxers! lol and i don't get hurt anymore
but all my friends like mature...i feel so out of place right now i try not to think about it
but ....i can't put it in words and i can't explain it but theres no point cause i know nobody will understand
and no i'm not emo
lol i'm just really sadden by all this cause i really feel left out
i mean if they could i bet they would just leave me
i can tell when people are annoyed with me and i've been getting the feeling alot
and the only time when i dont get that feeling is when i'm justg sitting and not talking
oh god i just hate my life
anyways thanks for reading if you even get this far
bye
luff
me
i hate it! and my dad keeps nagging me about god who knows what and its just ANNOYING!
ahhhhhhh
and this isnt really making me feel better! eveybody else is like lalala happy but i can't like like...show that im like going sad or what not and i dont want to talk about because nobody will understand. nobody....really.
lol but its fun to watch my friends.....theres so many drama its like watching a tv show....
they dont noticed me but i think i like it this way.
and its ok when everybody has a guy and i dont ...and i dont mean like boyfriend but like
as crush wise...i'm advoiding that for many reasons cause i know already that they will never like me.
if i learn anything in high school...guys dont dig me at all
1. asian
2. high pitch voice
3. annoying
4. ugly as heck
5. short
6. i have no personailty
7. i'm not mature
8. not smart
9. i dress funny
10. i'm way to shy
so...yeah...10 reasons and its ok at least i know whats wrong with me eh?
this is why i'll stick in my pretend world where billie joe or david or elijah or something can like
be my boyfriend with ice cream with glow in the dark boxers! lol and i don't get hurt anymore
but all my friends like mature...i feel so out of place right now i try not to think about it
but ....i can't put it in words and i can't explain it but theres no point cause i know nobody will understand
and no i'm not emo
lol i'm just really sadden by all this cause i really feel left out
i mean if they could i bet they would just leave me
i can tell when people are annoyed with me and i've been getting the feeling alot
and the only time when i dont get that feeling is when i'm justg sitting and not talking
oh god i just hate my life
anyways thanks for reading if you even get this far
bye
luff
me