Happy Core music really puts me in a great mood!
So today felt like a week in it's own. Noal & I had this whole idea of a "get shit done" list & well.. we were dumb and stayed up allll night so wen it came at 6AM all we did was bitch bitch bitch! But then after a lovely...disagreement and couple hr break things were back to the normal inlove state of our relationship. it helped that he surprised me with a caramel frapp from starbucks and a bouquet of rainbow flowers =) ahhhh! and i MELTED. hehe, im not very good w\showing how im feeling somtimes which is usually weird cuz if im even the slightest pissed or sad everyone knows, but wen im all giddy and happy i get super flustered and i like sort of freeze. BUT what rele made my heart smile was the fact that he knows how i looove sunflowers and he went everywhere lookin for one! thats what rele made me happy...
so ya, here i am 6:15AM eatin green beans listenin to happy core.. haha i gota go to bed soon, his bitch ass should be calling me netime now to bitch about me being on the comp.. wAiTiN..
Im so proud of him tho..i rele dont wana write this cuz i kno hes just gona read it, but maybe thats a good thing? idk.. but hes gettin back into what he loves. I mean most people never do what they want to, and if they do- not even half are good. Hes lucky he knows exactly what he wants to do and he's great at it.... sometimes I wish I could be less of a bitch and show him more of my sweet side but hes so damn cocky i just cant help be on the defense..and hes always bein sucha smart ass i rele dont feel like i can be sweet because he makes me feel stupid..as much as i love him and feel so connected to him, he doesnt rele get me...yet.. hopefully he will, but i dont think he realizes how much i do love him cause what may seem like something so normal to him and meaningless.. means such a huge deal to me..hmm...hmm...hmmph. =\ SPEAKIN OF HMMPH.. his stalker ex gf from vegas apparently knows my number and my screen name! not to mention reads my myspace and what not, but then has the AUDACITY to still cal him? i mean im not shocked. most stupid sluts will do anything to get a guys attention even if its so degrading and painfully obvious.. but i mean, get a fucking life! i understand.. i had gotten out of a 2 yr relationship w\a guy i thought was my love, but after 6 months and hanging out w\noal i realized how you can love again, and that guy means nothing to me! I feel if that girl just got another guy she'd leave us alone! it's so sad and pathetic. i mean i wouldnt even think to message her cause thatd start drama and HOW I HATE THE DRAMA.. not to mention itd make me look insecure and jealous and there's nothing to be insecure and jealous of.. lol.. not that im talking lookswise, she wasnt hideous but wasnt cute either but i mean as a person! after they cheated on each other, she shoulda just moved on then. I cant relate to being cheated on, but I did cheat on my ex and it was the worst thing ever.. I never ever will hrut someone i love ever again! Neways enuff rambling..geesh!
it's raining.. that just made my ENTIRE night, gawsh.. i love the rain.. yess, im def. going to bed now! it doesnt get ne better than fallin asleep to the rain, too bad he's not here to sleep w\me.. he will be tonight tho wen mommy goes to work! heh heh <3
...mori <3
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so ya, here i am 6:15AM eatin green beans listenin to happy core.. haha i gota go to bed soon, his bitch ass should be calling me netime now to bitch about me being on the comp.. wAiTiN..
Im so proud of him tho..i rele dont wana write this cuz i kno hes just gona read it, but maybe thats a good thing? idk.. but hes gettin back into what he loves. I mean most people never do what they want to, and if they do- not even half are good. Hes lucky he knows exactly what he wants to do and he's great at it.... sometimes I wish I could be less of a bitch and show him more of my sweet side but hes so damn cocky i just cant help be on the defense..and hes always bein sucha smart ass i rele dont feel like i can be sweet because he makes me feel stupid..as much as i love him and feel so connected to him, he doesnt rele get me...yet.. hopefully he will, but i dont think he realizes how much i do love him cause what may seem like something so normal to him and meaningless.. means such a huge deal to me..hmm...hmm...hmmph. =\ SPEAKIN OF HMMPH.. his stalker ex gf from vegas apparently knows my number and my screen name! not to mention reads my myspace and what not, but then has the AUDACITY to still cal him? i mean im not shocked. most stupid sluts will do anything to get a guys attention even if its so degrading and painfully obvious.. but i mean, get a fucking life! i understand.. i had gotten out of a 2 yr relationship w\a guy i thought was my love, but after 6 months and hanging out w\noal i realized how you can love again, and that guy means nothing to me! I feel if that girl just got another guy she'd leave us alone! it's so sad and pathetic. i mean i wouldnt even think to message her cause thatd start drama and HOW I HATE THE DRAMA.. not to mention itd make me look insecure and jealous and there's nothing to be insecure and jealous of.. lol.. not that im talking lookswise, she wasnt hideous but wasnt cute either but i mean as a person! after they cheated on each other, she shoulda just moved on then. I cant relate to being cheated on, but I did cheat on my ex and it was the worst thing ever.. I never ever will hrut someone i love ever again! Neways enuff rambling..geesh!
it's raining.. that just made my ENTIRE night, gawsh.. i love the rain.. yess, im def. going to bed now! it doesnt get ne better than fallin asleep to the rain, too bad he's not here to sleep w\me.. he will be tonight tho wen mommy goes to work! heh heh <3
...mori <3
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