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The campus is so empty.
I don't even know whether I should be here or not. I wanna leave but I have this overwhelming sense/guilt of "You work. So you should be at work."
Like I feel it would look poorly on me if I just took off. Not that anyone is here or anything. Except the department's administrative assistant, and I always get the vibe from her that, "This kid is too young. He has no idea what he's doing. He's probably slacking. I'm gonna tell Bill (our boss). I can't believe he didn't come to work today. I'm gonna tell Bill. He's not working hard enough. Did he just take an extended lunch break? He left early today. I'm gonna tell Bill."
All in one glance. I'm sure that's the paranoia setting in. But I can't help it.
I'm not even sure if Bill is here or not.
Thing is, if I do leave, where do I go? I can't go to the stores of the mall coz I spend all my money on Christmas gifts.
I can't go home, coz its like an hour away.
And I'm working at the hospital tonight. And that would entail me driving back and forth and that's just a hassle.
So I've just been surfing youtube all morning. The thing is my connection at work is way better than home. Which kinda sucks.
I really need a need computer. I've been debating whether or not to get a Mac or PC. I like PC only coz its familiar and the thought of learning a new system hurts my hair. But I also deal a lot with graphics and some people I talked to say Mac's are good for that. I'm at a draw.
So here's a handy poll for y'all:
Poll The Great Debate
I don't even know whether I should be here or not. I wanna leave but I have this overwhelming sense/guilt of "You work. So you should be at work."
Like I feel it would look poorly on me if I just took off. Not that anyone is here or anything. Except the department's administrative assistant, and I always get the vibe from her that, "This kid is too young. He has no idea what he's doing. He's probably slacking. I'm gonna tell Bill (our boss). I can't believe he didn't come to work today. I'm gonna tell Bill. He's not working hard enough. Did he just take an extended lunch break? He left early today. I'm gonna tell Bill."
All in one glance. I'm sure that's the paranoia setting in. But I can't help it.
I'm not even sure if Bill is here or not.
Thing is, if I do leave, where do I go? I can't go to the stores of the mall coz I spend all my money on Christmas gifts.
I can't go home, coz its like an hour away.
And I'm working at the hospital tonight. And that would entail me driving back and forth and that's just a hassle.
So I've just been surfing youtube all morning. The thing is my connection at work is way better than home. Which kinda sucks.
I really need a need computer. I've been debating whether or not to get a Mac or PC. I like PC only coz its familiar and the thought of learning a new system hurts my hair. But I also deal a lot with graphics and some people I talked to say Mac's are good for that. I'm at a draw.
So here's a handy poll for y'all:
Poll The Great Debate