Sick of hiding...
I miss when things on the internet actually involved thought in their creation or existence, and weren't so forcefully interconnected. It was the reason why I loved LiveJournal so much. I made a lot of real friends through here. But this shady interconnectivity in social networks, ie: facebook, is unfortunately why I don't write here as often as I should or as often as I want to. I'm always afraid of who is going to find me. The internet used to be a safe haven, a secret playground where I could share my thoughts and direct them to the people who I wanted to show my thoughts to. Nowadays everything feels much more forced and everything has a history, but that could just be a symptom of being older, having to watch what you say for your career and whatnot.
But I do feel this intense need and want to write out my thoughts publicly. Is it really something I need to hide? Are my thoughts something to be ashamed of? Writing is my one channel of interaction with the universe and with the right people, the only channel that sends the message right, exactly what I mean to say. My writing is the most accurate portrayal of who and what I am, completely. It is the mode in which I can understand myself. I don't feel refreshed without it.
But I do feel this intense need and want to write out my thoughts publicly. Is it really something I need to hide? Are my thoughts something to be ashamed of? Writing is my one channel of interaction with the universe and with the right people, the only channel that sends the message right, exactly what I mean to say. My writing is the most accurate portrayal of who and what I am, completely. It is the mode in which I can understand myself. I don't feel refreshed without it.