Hurt...
Sometimes I really feel so exasperated talking to my parents...particularly my mum tt I just wanna kill myself !!!
Argh!!!!
Imagine her saying tis to me mins ago while I am studying for my mid-term test:
"如果你真的有认真的在读 (referring to the past)，就不会搞到今天还在读书＂
Lyk WTF!!!
I admit I screwed up in JC by letting a stupid RS affect my studies but I really did my best in Poly wad! Y sae tt of me? My GPA was 3.21 outta 4...nt the most ideal but it's above avg according to my lecturer who wrote my testimonial...when many of my peers gt below 3...
Wad can I do when I applied to all the local Unis thrice n they all rejected me???!!!
U tink it's so easy to get in meh? I really did my best in Poly yet all u can sae is tis kinda hurting remarks to me?! Wad makes u tink i nv try hard enough?! Wad makes u tink i nv try my best?! U tink I feel very gd tt I gt rejected time n time again n is unable to get into a local uni to do u proud?
I am trying my best to make up for lost time...u tink flying n studying is fucking ez? When others r out shopping n having fun or slping in their cozy beds...I am stuck in the hotel rm doing projs or studying for tests till the wee hrs of the nite...
If she sees all tis u noe wads she's gonna tell me?
"这些都是你自找的＂
Thx mum...
She ever told me if she was me she wld rather take e $20k go & invest rather den waste it on studies...tts her exact words...
I am weak...I can't helped coming into my rm & cry...tears just flow down uncontrollably...
Wadever I do it's nv good enough...
Life just sux to the max!!!
God just let everything end here ba...I am so tired...wads e pt of trying so hard..nth wks...
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