what a crappy day
for the past couple days now shit has been going down and this whole drama thing...i just can't do. i didn't think that loving someone could hurt so bad. when i'm with him i feel something inside my heart. it feels so good to see his beautiful brown eyes. i just don't get how he can be so mean. i don't know what more anyone could ask for. i wanted to take care of him, i wanted for him to be my everything and all he can say about it is "so who did you have sex with today?". WHY? i want so much from you. i want you to be the one who makes me proud and the one who cooks breakfast in the morning. you mean so much to me. but why... You are so mean to me and yet, there i am coming right back to you because i love you so much it hurts. i didn't think that it was suppose to be like that. it just seems that right now my whole little world is falling apart. i know that it will all pass but as of right now it hurts real bad. i don't know what to do. i mean, i do one thing and then i lose another thing. so either way i'm not happy. i want to make every one happy but what about me? does anyone care that i'm hurting? oh well, what goes around comes around. i don't know... i wish i could invent this machine to go back in time... man, wouldn't that be nice...