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Why can't 3 months go faster?
I seem to be crying every day and I can't even seem to figure out why. I have constant mood swings, and it's irritating the hell out of me. I know that some of it is from the fact that my mom is constantly bitching at me to do work around the house, even though I go to school and have a job now. She thinks that I'm being neglectful of my family because I go online a lot to talk to my boyfriend that lives like 900 miles away. She never asks me to come and talk to her, and expects me to be the one to initiate conversations. I can't always be the one to say something, and she constantly sits around doing nothing while I'm doing something important like homework and bitches at me to get up and do laundry or clean. I know that she provides everything for me, but she isn't on her feet all day at work like I am. She yells at me for being lazy, but I'm not the one that sits on my ass all day.
Also, I miss my boyfriend so much. It makes me cry thinking about how much I want him to be here, and the fact that I won't see him for another 3 months. I can't even begin to describe the way I feel about him. I wish I could stop being selfish and bratty with him, and I keep trying to stop myself from doing it, but I want him to think about me as much as I think about him. I know he probably does, but I need to be told so. I know that's a selfish thing to ask, but maybe it would help with the way I'm feeling. He tells me every day that he loves me, and I know that he means it, but it's hard to feel the emotion behind it when it's just words on the computer screen. I love getting phone calls from him because it just makes my day happier. And when I talk to my mother about it, she really doesn't seem to understand. Actually, I don't think that anyone but Tim really understands it.
Oh well. I guess I just have to live with it and hope that being busy will make time go faster.
I seem to be crying every day and I can't even seem to figure out why. I have constant mood swings, and it's irritating the hell out of me. I know that some of it is from the fact that my mom is constantly bitching at me to do work around the house, even though I go to school and have a job now. She thinks that I'm being neglectful of my family because I go online a lot to talk to my boyfriend that lives like 900 miles away. She never asks me to come and talk to her, and expects me to be the one to initiate conversations. I can't always be the one to say something, and she constantly sits around doing nothing while I'm doing something important like homework and bitches at me to get up and do laundry or clean. I know that she provides everything for me, but she isn't on her feet all day at work like I am. She yells at me for being lazy, but I'm not the one that sits on my ass all day.
Also, I miss my boyfriend so much. It makes me cry thinking about how much I want him to be here, and the fact that I won't see him for another 3 months. I can't even begin to describe the way I feel about him. I wish I could stop being selfish and bratty with him, and I keep trying to stop myself from doing it, but I want him to think about me as much as I think about him. I know he probably does, but I need to be told so. I know that's a selfish thing to ask, but maybe it would help with the way I'm feeling. He tells me every day that he loves me, and I know that he means it, but it's hard to feel the emotion behind it when it's just words on the computer screen. I love getting phone calls from him because it just makes my day happier. And when I talk to my mother about it, she really doesn't seem to understand. Actually, I don't think that anyone but Tim really understands it.
Oh well. I guess I just have to live with it and hope that being busy will make time go faster.