wow my butt is vibrateing! lol WOW that dosent sound right......
i am tired of my computer being all not jessica like ness...i will fix it tho.
This hole week i am going to be sad. Yeah ricky will be leaveing to south cali in like 2 more hours :(
i told him i am going to miss him. He told me he is going to miss talking to me so much. it was sweet. The last thing he told me last night was that..."jessica, you are so wonderful, i am so happy i met you and that i have you in my life"....i told him " awww ricky your wonderful too and the same goses with me" then i told him to have a good trip and i will talk to him in a week and sweet dreams<3
I told ricky he made me sad at times, but happy times for the most. He told me sorry for the sad. And that he has strong feeling for me...and he meant it when he told me he liked me alot<3 I love that, I love him. He is there for me and he dosent want me to mess up my life, and tells me i am pretty and i am smart and i can be something. he is want i need and want right now...and he needs me. I mean i know ricky feels somthing for me if he didnt then why dose his heart return every call i send, no matter what time at night it might be or if he gets to talk to me for a sec. I wish only i could see him alot of if i could then me and him could be together. I think for v-day i am going to make some money and show him my feeling by sending him flowers and candy...ect....or some HOT COLOCTE AND GUMMY BEARS! something i wll send him and it will be in the area....i have a couple of days to do it.<3i really like him tho as you can read....
okay this weekend turned out kind of bad...I GOT MY REPORT CARD...bad bad bad...but no f's but still bad. I felt bad i knew i can do better...but ricky told me not to even worry about it.
I been thinking i need something for me...i been hella thinking about my old promise to me...was to have sex on my 18 birthday if i didnt have sex by then. i feel like i am ready to do something like that...and dont just think cause of ricky or something...this is because of me. But i wont be stupid i want to have sex with a friend....someone i can trust not to hurt me, go around saying stupid crap.....oo and someone i like/love....i know tho i would want that person to be more then a friend...i still have to think for myslef...and it is my decison. I dont care if people dont think i am not thinking carely cause here is saying i want to have sex but a month ago me saying i will be a nun. I dont think the man i am going to marry will be a vergin. But when i know for sure i want too...how am i going to ask my mom for birth control cause if i ask she thinks i am going to go off and have sex... and i know if she thinks that she wont let me talk to guys again or sleep at there houses,....or anything like that. 18 years old people can get birth control without mom's and pop's knowing right>???????????????????????????
cause if so i will get it when i am 18 and i will have a cell cause i am getting money and they can calll that. Okay i just planed it out lol....wow.....but i still dont even tho.
SHIT I AM ALL GASSY...i KNOW that is sexxxy to say......
okay well i am going to go and check the myspace maybe hopefully<3
This hole week i am going to be sad. Yeah ricky will be leaveing to south cali in like 2 more hours :(
i told him i am going to miss him. He told me he is going to miss talking to me so much. it was sweet. The last thing he told me last night was that..."jessica, you are so wonderful, i am so happy i met you and that i have you in my life"....i told him " awww ricky your wonderful too and the same goses with me" then i told him to have a good trip and i will talk to him in a week and sweet dreams<3
I told ricky he made me sad at times, but happy times for the most. He told me sorry for the sad. And that he has strong feeling for me...and he meant it when he told me he liked me alot<3 I love that, I love him. He is there for me and he dosent want me to mess up my life, and tells me i am pretty and i am smart and i can be something. he is want i need and want right now...and he needs me. I mean i know ricky feels somthing for me if he didnt then why dose his heart return every call i send, no matter what time at night it might be or if he gets to talk to me for a sec. I wish only i could see him alot of if i could then me and him could be together. I think for v-day i am going to make some money and show him my feeling by sending him flowers and candy...ect....or some HOT COLOCTE AND GUMMY BEARS! something i wll send him and it will be in the area....i have a couple of days to do it.<3i really like him tho as you can read....
okay this weekend turned out kind of bad...I GOT MY REPORT CARD...bad bad bad...but no f's but still bad. I felt bad i knew i can do better...but ricky told me not to even worry about it.
I been thinking i need something for me...i been hella thinking about my old promise to me...was to have sex on my 18 birthday if i didnt have sex by then. i feel like i am ready to do something like that...and dont just think cause of ricky or something...this is because of me. But i wont be stupid i want to have sex with a friend....someone i can trust not to hurt me, go around saying stupid crap.....oo and someone i like/love....i know tho i would want that person to be more then a friend...i still have to think for myslef...and it is my decison. I dont care if people dont think i am not thinking carely cause here is saying i want to have sex but a month ago me saying i will be a nun. I dont think the man i am going to marry will be a vergin. But when i know for sure i want too...how am i going to ask my mom for birth control cause if i ask she thinks i am going to go off and have sex... and i know if she thinks that she wont let me talk to guys again or sleep at there houses,....or anything like that. 18 years old people can get birth control without mom's and pop's knowing right>???????????????????????????
cause if so i will get it when i am 18 and i will have a cell cause i am getting money and they can calll that. Okay i just planed it out lol....wow.....but i still dont even tho.
SHIT I AM ALL GASSY...i KNOW that is sexxxy to say......
okay well i am going to go and check the myspace maybe hopefully<3