I might cry...
I know why I am sensitive.
I was looking back on the past year of my life...
And damn. I kind of gave myself to a lot of people(not sexually) and just got let down A LOT.
Let's see, because of miscommunication and other people, me and the first boy I was in love with broke up and hurt each other up until the beginning of last December. For those of you who know the feeling of love and having it taken away from you and how awful it is, just think of that and having it happen repeatedly over about a year.
Over the summer, I thought I found someone to "save" me from my pain...but that didn't go anywhere.
Then I fell into a lot of retards over and over again that were either too clingy or too dumb or too dense to realize I liked them or they had some other reason to make me not like them.
I ended friendships.
I had to grow up A LOT.
I had to realize that everyone gets hurt...every is the same to some extent.
And everyone is also very different.
I was hurt and confused by all the things I was realizing.
How things change.
How people change.
How I've changed.
Then I found him.
I'm not saying that everything is "perfect" and whatnot, I am still a whirlwind of emotional and mental confusion.
But I like having Steve around.
He cares about me.
I'm not saying anything more than that because I don't want to curse it.
I just don't want to get hurt.
There is a reason why I'm putting these quotes in...
"I couldn't tell you why she felt that way she felt it everyday.
-
open your eyes and look outside,
find the reasons why
you've been rejected
and know you can't find what you've left behind.
be strong, be strong now
too many, too many problems
don't know where she belongs,
where she belongs
she wants to go home
but nobody's home
swear she lies, broken inside."
"she's fallen from grace, she's all over the place.
She's lost inside."
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auditions are over. the cast list for GODSPELL is being put up tomorrow.
hmmm...
I was looking back on the past year of my life...
And damn. I kind of gave myself to a lot of people(not sexually) and just got let down A LOT.
Let's see, because of miscommunication and other people, me and the first boy I was in love with broke up and hurt each other up until the beginning of last December. For those of you who know the feeling of love and having it taken away from you and how awful it is, just think of that and having it happen repeatedly over about a year.
Over the summer, I thought I found someone to "save" me from my pain...but that didn't go anywhere.
Then I fell into a lot of retards over and over again that were either too clingy or too dumb or too dense to realize I liked them or they had some other reason to make me not like them.
I ended friendships.
I had to grow up A LOT.
I had to realize that everyone gets hurt...every is the same to some extent.
And everyone is also very different.
I was hurt and confused by all the things I was realizing.
How things change.
How people change.
How I've changed.
Then I found him.
I'm not saying that everything is "perfect" and whatnot, I am still a whirlwind of emotional and mental confusion.
But I like having Steve around.
He cares about me.
I'm not saying anything more than that because I don't want to curse it.
I just don't want to get hurt.
There is a reason why I'm putting these quotes in...
"I couldn't tell you why she felt that way she felt it everyday.
-
open your eyes and look outside,
find the reasons why
you've been rejected
and know you can't find what you've left behind.
be strong, be strong now
too many, too many problems
don't know where she belongs,
where she belongs
she wants to go home
but nobody's home
swear she lies, broken inside."
"she's fallen from grace, she's all over the place.
She's lost inside."
------
auditions are over. the cast list for GODSPELL is being put up tomorrow.
hmmm...