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on verge of nervous breakdown, if uni was not part of my life then all would be great. Sunday i planned on spending in library, I was in library for 15 minutes when Ley phoned me and demanded that I come round to his. I spent the afternoon drinking red wine and eating home made chinese food with and indian, a chinese and 4 spaniards. It reminded me of being in california quite a lot. I was a lil bit drunk on arrival at work. Work was a bit pants but at the end I was having a good laugh with Ben, Aida and Katrina. Have plans for Katrina and I to get proper wasted before turning up at Kei's leaving night. I have doubts about whether or not this is a good idea. Have plans to go round to Akin's for a smoke afterwards cause Katrina is too scared to go by herself, for good reasons.
So uni is pants. Everyday I question why I am here, staying on goes against a lot of what i believe in. If i died next June and had spent the last year of my life studying my ass off for something which will not affect my planned career, I would be massively pissed off at my dead self. My project is going so slowly it is painful. I spent most of today hunting for articles on wingloading, i found none to add to my current 4. I can't write my paper with 4 references, that would be impossible. My statistics have been done and of all the tests, only 3 results were significantly different. I don't even remember what I want to find.
Neurobiology was boring as hell, my new class, population biology, verges on impossible. I want this to be over so I can be me again. I forgot what me is. What is me?
So uni is pants. Everyday I question why I am here, staying on goes against a lot of what i believe in. If i died next June and had spent the last year of my life studying my ass off for something which will not affect my planned career, I would be massively pissed off at my dead self. My project is going so slowly it is painful. I spent most of today hunting for articles on wingloading, i found none to add to my current 4. I can't write my paper with 4 references, that would be impossible. My statistics have been done and of all the tests, only 3 results were significantly different. I don't even remember what I want to find.
Neurobiology was boring as hell, my new class, population biology, verges on impossible. I want this to be over so I can be me again. I forgot what me is. What is me?