Totally Worn Out....
I'm soooooo tired!!! This weekend was crazy and so much shit happened, but it was so fun. We had some bonding time wit the girls and guys (haha) and what not and it def got crazy. 2 nites or for some 3 nites of craziness is tooo much. I'm def takin a break for a lil while. hehe. I know that people dont wanna hear bout it so i wont type it cuz i dont want ne1 to think less of my morals b/c apparently im loosing them but who knows.
I've been stuck in this room for basically 4 days and im not gunna be able to get back into the whole school/work thing. My body is totally shutting down and I think I'm getting sick. My throat is getting sore so I need to take a trip and get something for that. I'm walking around like a friggen zombie and I need to sleeeeeeeeep.
But ya...My brain hurts. I've been thinkin alot lately and I'm so blah about everything. It just sucks that some people are sometimes soo neg about themselves and think that no one is good enough for them. I know that he just needs time and what not cuz that he's strugglin wit other stuff. I just hope he knows that I'm hea no matta wat. He doesnt think i deserve him, but i honestly cant help what i feel and im tryin to stop but it is really hard. Most of my friends dont really like him bc of all the shit that they know went down but to me theres def something different and I dont wanna let it go, but I prolly am gunna havta...*sigh*... :( I wish there was something I could do to make everything good or something but its not gunna happen...o well..its just gunna take a while...please bare with me and thanks to the ppl who havta put up wit me lol...
Ya i'm wicked tired so im hittin the hay....gnite world...
peace out girl scouts!
I've been stuck in this room for basically 4 days and im not gunna be able to get back into the whole school/work thing. My body is totally shutting down and I think I'm getting sick. My throat is getting sore so I need to take a trip and get something for that. I'm walking around like a friggen zombie and I need to sleeeeeeeeep.
But ya...My brain hurts. I've been thinkin alot lately and I'm so blah about everything. It just sucks that some people are sometimes soo neg about themselves and think that no one is good enough for them. I know that he just needs time and what not cuz that he's strugglin wit other stuff. I just hope he knows that I'm hea no matta wat. He doesnt think i deserve him, but i honestly cant help what i feel and im tryin to stop but it is really hard. Most of my friends dont really like him bc of all the shit that they know went down but to me theres def something different and I dont wanna let it go, but I prolly am gunna havta...*sigh*... :( I wish there was something I could do to make everything good or something but its not gunna happen...o well..its just gunna take a while...please bare with me and thanks to the ppl who havta put up wit me lol...
Ya i'm wicked tired so im hittin the hay....gnite world...
peace out girl scouts!