Bored i Suppose
wow i haven't wrote in this forever lol.
well to start things off i may be moving to flordia within the next week =[
if i don't go my daddy still is. and i dont' want him to. hes my best friend, hes the only one i really get along with at my house. i would like die if he left me here to deal with my fucking gay ass mother.
and im back together with alex, and i hope its going to stay that way forever but i can't count on that.
i love him so much though it really isn't funny. he doesn't understand that i have loved him since 7th grade and i have never gotten over him. i may have lied and i shouldnt have but everything got mad at me cuz hes a player and all. But no one really understands my feelings about him except me so no one should be able to judge me about that. They do anyway though, half the fucking people in this world only no how to start drama and thats the only thing there really doing right?
Im having a major issue with gydeon and laura right now. well laura mostly. and i just broke up with gydeon like 2 weeks ago and laura was making plans to get him to go out with him like the day after we broke up. and i found out she tried to get down his pants at shannons christmas party earlier today.
If laura would have told me i really wouldn;t have cared but since she decided to hide it from me and lie to me about everything, that just reallly pushed me off the edge. i mean if you really liked someone and you were with them for almost 4 months and had your best friend trying to get down his pants and shit right after we broke up how would you feel? i feel bad though talkin like that cuz i ended up going back out wtih alex like not even 2 days after breakin up with gydeon. and i know that really hurt him. i just didnt' know what to do and alex was there for me i guess and gydeon and i were just fighting and fightin there was just noo way that it was going to work out. i mean if we really tried hard enough it could've worked but we both liked other people and just decided to be friends. And actually im kinda mad at gydeon becuz we were supposed to talk everything out last monday and he ended up ignoring me cuz he thinks that im going to try to get back together with him and that really i don't think would happen. Im actually really happy wtih alex right now and i think gydeon is finding some new chicks to go out with and stuff.
but im really tired and im off to bed.
well to start things off i may be moving to flordia within the next week =[
if i don't go my daddy still is. and i dont' want him to. hes my best friend, hes the only one i really get along with at my house. i would like die if he left me here to deal with my fucking gay ass mother.
and im back together with alex, and i hope its going to stay that way forever but i can't count on that.
i love him so much though it really isn't funny. he doesn't understand that i have loved him since 7th grade and i have never gotten over him. i may have lied and i shouldnt have but everything got mad at me cuz hes a player and all. But no one really understands my feelings about him except me so no one should be able to judge me about that. They do anyway though, half the fucking people in this world only no how to start drama and thats the only thing there really doing right?
Im having a major issue with gydeon and laura right now. well laura mostly. and i just broke up with gydeon like 2 weeks ago and laura was making plans to get him to go out with him like the day after we broke up. and i found out she tried to get down his pants at shannons christmas party earlier today.
If laura would have told me i really wouldn;t have cared but since she decided to hide it from me and lie to me about everything, that just reallly pushed me off the edge. i mean if you really liked someone and you were with them for almost 4 months and had your best friend trying to get down his pants and shit right after we broke up how would you feel? i feel bad though talkin like that cuz i ended up going back out wtih alex like not even 2 days after breakin up with gydeon. and i know that really hurt him. i just didnt' know what to do and alex was there for me i guess and gydeon and i were just fighting and fightin there was just noo way that it was going to work out. i mean if we really tried hard enough it could've worked but we both liked other people and just decided to be friends. And actually im kinda mad at gydeon becuz we were supposed to talk everything out last monday and he ended up ignoring me cuz he thinks that im going to try to get back together with him and that really i don't think would happen. Im actually really happy wtih alex right now and i think gydeon is finding some new chicks to go out with and stuff.
but im really tired and im off to bed.