Dec 12, 2004 04:25
why is it that men cant step up to the plate and just be a man? oh wait...that would be entirely too easy! we as women try so hard to be honest and open...what they ask for. then when we are, why can a man not turn around and be honest. granted, sometimes the truth entirely hurts but dont we deserve to know the truth as well? take this for example, a man that you've previously dated finally seems to come around and be honest with you. through a series of conversations he tells you that he still cares and still loves you, infact - that's he is still in love with you. then during these conversations talks about marriage and the future...as in you and him ending up together. yet, only 2 weeks later--- he's found somone else?!?! as if that's not bad enough---he doesnt care enough to give you a damn explanation? wow, what an idiot she is. oh right-- that was me. it's amazing what spells love will put you under. to think i actually freakin believed him this time?!!? hah. what was i thinking. oh right- back to the whole being in love with someone. well, i'll tell you one thing- the idiot let go of someone that quite frankly would have done anything for him. hah, to think i was willing enough to wait for him until we were done with school. what a fool am i?
You said that it was over when you saw him today. But in your mind you're only playing, hoping it'll change his ways. Cause you can't see and you dont believe all the lies that he's birthed. And now your heart is truly broken from all the words he's spoken cause thats where you find your worth. please hold on dont sell out, lift your head girl and be proud. and stand tall, oh be strong. have pride and faith, lean on God and move on. Just move on. Still you stay, just to save another nite. and you lie with him....just to hence another fight. cause you cant see and you dont believe all the lies that he's birthed. and now your heart is truly broken from all the words he's spoken cause that 's where you find your worth. please hold on, dont sell out....lift your head girl and be proud. stand tall, oh be strong. have some pride lean on faith and move on. oh please move on. cause you cant see and you dont believe all the lies that he's birthed. and now your heart is truly broken from all the words he's spoken....cause that's where you find your worth. *repeat chorus* move on....just move on....you said that it was over when you saw him today.... - Burgundy Road
a wise woman introduced me to that song, she gave it to me a year ago. i listened to it repeatedly....just to try and find some strength to try just that- to move on. and yet, here i sit a year later still listening to it trying to make sense of why i deserved to be treated like this. damn it, for once i didnt do a damn thing wrong. he knows what he's done but he doesnt have the decency to live up to it. he finally found what he was searching for i suppose...yet, i bet she's a lot like me. in some part of me, i pray that not to be true in the hopes that one day he'll realize- she's not me and maybe he'll find that i was what he wanted all along. laugh, then again...i'm only holding on to false hope at this point. i havent talked to him in 5 maybe 6 weeks?
oh shit! gotta go, j just broke bran's heart. damn men