get away from the life your living
Yesterday Brandon, Ryan, and I baked some special cookies and brownies. Special. So I was relaxed and idiotic all of yesterday. I went home early last night and I borrowed "Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen" from Brand's mom and I watch it with my mother. It was cute. Then I layed in bed and watched Nip/Tuck which is a really good show and I thought about things like how I have done too many things that I regret. It disgusts me. It all happened because of drugs and alcohol too. Goddammit. Except in 8th grade when I was really mean to this girl, Gwyn, for no reason and I named her "Bob" and me and all my little friends made fun of her in front of her face and we used the name Bob so she wouldn't know it was her. We made fun of her because she was annoying and she looked like a giant elf. Eventually she found out and confronted me about it and its been haunting me for the rest of my life. She moved after that and I think it was because I made her life in York a living hell and she definitely didn't deserve that. I am a bad person. And I cant blame that on drugs and alcohol. Well I can't blame anything on drugs and alcohol, because it was my choice to do them in the first place, right? right. Apparently Gwyn/Bob is a beautiful model now. Even though I saw her last year and she still looked like a big elf. But maybe thats considered beautiful and stuff. I am a bad person. I know how it feels to be teased, and yet I still did it to other people. At least I grew up and I don't pull that kind of bullshit anymore.