another beautiful to put a smile on my face
so checking my banking account, i need to figure out how to get some cash so i can go to warped tour to see my boys (fall out boy). so if anyone feels like handing out money, theres someone willing to take it off your hands *points to self*
im sitting at school waiting to mosey on over to spanish. wahoo. how not exciting. with the weather being so wonderful I have had no motivation to go to classes at all, but I know I need to go, so i can rack in some last minute points to help my grades. I talked to Dr. Tim Odegard yesterday about doing research over the summer, and he referred me to the head woman, Dr. Renya (thats how i think its spelt).. I could be wrong though. I am going to be working with adoloscents participating in "risky behavior" probably. How convienent, right?! But I think this will be really good for me, to finally realize I'm not alone in this fight. Or I'm hoping I feel that way. Tim was talking to me about being a health educator for this teens. I'm getting excited about this somewhat. I dont know if i should be though, he told me that I should be getting scared. But I'm never really afraid of a good challenge.
My life is getting better since Monday. That was an extremely rocky, terrible day for me. Well up til noon. Some of you know by now, due to finances and such my parents decided to sell the mazda. And they realized it would be cheaper and easier for my mom to go ahead and retire from her job. Well no one told me any of this but i had an idea this was happening but they kept telling me no, that everything was okay. So monday after i found everything out i was livid. I was just sooo upset and didnt understand why any of this was happening. Like my mom was upset because she didnt wanna leave all her work buddies behind, and my dad was just trying to be supportive, and I had to be the one taking it the worst out of everyone. So i left for work and cried the whole way there. Composed myself to go inside, just for my dad to call and make things worse. I am sitting in my "office space" just bawling my eyes out and poor eric is just sitting there trying to make me smile, cheer me, whatever it took to get my mind off things. He was soo sweet about all of it. I felt like a moron, crying at work. But me and my dad talked at lunch and he explained thoroughly why everything was happening the way it was. So i am better now. I dont think my mom is completely happy with "retiring", but im trying to comfort her during this change. b/c we all know i HATE change. its completely evil, even if it is good change, i still dont like it. I still hate the change of all my friends from H.S. moving away. just something i have to deal with.
better note: the weather. I love it. Thank you God for making beautiful days like this. This kind of weather is the stuff that makes me actually want to get out of bed and be productive and enjoy myself, and life. Again I thank you.
but that is about it. Its like 5 now so i need to head over to the TH to get my learning cap on and do something good with myself.
"B"
♥ :)I LOVE YOU ALL :) ♥ mad love
im sitting at school waiting to mosey on over to spanish. wahoo. how not exciting. with the weather being so wonderful I have had no motivation to go to classes at all, but I know I need to go, so i can rack in some last minute points to help my grades. I talked to Dr. Tim Odegard yesterday about doing research over the summer, and he referred me to the head woman, Dr. Renya (thats how i think its spelt).. I could be wrong though. I am going to be working with adoloscents participating in "risky behavior" probably. How convienent, right?! But I think this will be really good for me, to finally realize I'm not alone in this fight. Or I'm hoping I feel that way. Tim was talking to me about being a health educator for this teens. I'm getting excited about this somewhat. I dont know if i should be though, he told me that I should be getting scared. But I'm never really afraid of a good challenge.
My life is getting better since Monday. That was an extremely rocky, terrible day for me. Well up til noon. Some of you know by now, due to finances and such my parents decided to sell the mazda. And they realized it would be cheaper and easier for my mom to go ahead and retire from her job. Well no one told me any of this but i had an idea this was happening but they kept telling me no, that everything was okay. So monday after i found everything out i was livid. I was just sooo upset and didnt understand why any of this was happening. Like my mom was upset because she didnt wanna leave all her work buddies behind, and my dad was just trying to be supportive, and I had to be the one taking it the worst out of everyone. So i left for work and cried the whole way there. Composed myself to go inside, just for my dad to call and make things worse. I am sitting in my "office space" just bawling my eyes out and poor eric is just sitting there trying to make me smile, cheer me, whatever it took to get my mind off things. He was soo sweet about all of it. I felt like a moron, crying at work. But me and my dad talked at lunch and he explained thoroughly why everything was happening the way it was. So i am better now. I dont think my mom is completely happy with "retiring", but im trying to comfort her during this change. b/c we all know i HATE change. its completely evil, even if it is good change, i still dont like it. I still hate the change of all my friends from H.S. moving away. just something i have to deal with.
better note: the weather. I love it. Thank you God for making beautiful days like this. This kind of weather is the stuff that makes me actually want to get out of bed and be productive and enjoy myself, and life. Again I thank you.
but that is about it. Its like 5 now so i need to head over to the TH to get my learning cap on and do something good with myself.
"B"
♥ :)I LOVE YOU ALL :) ♥ mad love