My nightmare begins when I wake from my dreams
I knew it would happen once again. My happiness is only a temporary ordeal..... it lasts about a day or two, three if I'm wicked lucky and leaves just as soon. I fucking love it. I guess I'm obviously not cool enough for ANYONE nowadays except for maybe Lee or Joey. I've gotten dicked over approximately 6 times in this last weekend. WOOHOO. What can be better than that? Each day I get closer and closer and closer to fuckingjust joining the army and getting the fuck outta here. I'm just about there, seriously. I need a new environment no matter if there are fuckers there too. I just need to get out, and soon.
I mean, sure, I could probably be ALOT happier if I just went out with Joe again, and that's what I really want to do.... I just think that if I do fix things with us, that I'll end up ruining his life and that is the last thing I wanna do. I'm no good and I know it. All I do is cause "drama", right John? :::fucking homo::: I love him SO FUCKING MUCH, but like I said, I want the best for him. I don't care about me, I care about him. I'm a fucking asshole bitch and that's the last thing he needs. Well, I'm off.
I mean, sure, I could probably be ALOT happier if I just went out with Joe again, and that's what I really want to do.... I just think that if I do fix things with us, that I'll end up ruining his life and that is the last thing I wanna do. I'm no good and I know it. All I do is cause "drama", right John? :::fucking homo::: I love him SO FUCKING MUCH, but like I said, I want the best for him. I don't care about me, I care about him. I'm a fucking asshole bitch and that's the last thing he needs. Well, I'm off.