Barnes and Noble
Spending four hours alone at a book/music/dvd/cafe store thing is actually very fun. I bought a CD for my mom, Elliot Smith. I also ordered 2 other CD's. Two that I have been wanting for a long time - Jason Becker's Perpetual Burn and Cacophony's Speed Metal Symphony. I read a Bust magazine, and a game informer and a DIY skirt book. I sat in the kid's section and got to watch all the creepy children who would run up to me saying "BLEEEEH!" Like they wanted to suck my blood or something. Creepy kids. It was uber crowded, but my friend never showed up. I was very disappointed. This is the second time this has happened, and I am beginning to lose hope in making good friends here. But as long as I have my mother, I think I will be happy. I mean, I have so far. I just wonder what my problem is. I am an all around happy person, I have a lot to talk about, I think I am pretty interesting. I like to have fun, I am outgoing. I don't judge anyone, I am just all around nice. What is it that I do wrong? I finally get the courage to ask a girl out, and nothing happens. It's a real downer. All of my best friends, my closest friends, the ones who would never hurt me or stand me up, the ones who are appreciative of me, are all guys. I love them all, but it does matter. At least to me. I need some girlfriends. It's been years. I can't even remember the last time I spent the night at a friend's house for a slumber party. Movie. Popcorn. I have longed for that kind of thing for a long time. I hate high school girls. Hate is a little too harsh for it. I'm growing tired of highschool girls and their games. I'm lonely. >_