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[pinktommygun]

I feel happy with myself, I feel like I've really grown so much over the past couple months here. Just with life overall, I know I fuck up, I know I WILL fuck up again, and I know how to handle it better in the future. My relationship with Bryce changed my life completely. And I understand what people like Jenny were talking about. Once when she told me not to let him see me crumble, and I was absolutely dumbfounded as why she would say that. I basically listened to no one, not even the people I loved and cared about most. But since they love me, they've mostly forgiven me and helped me move forward. And I can safely look back on it and say I'm happy it happened. There were MISERABLE moments, but I figured out so many great things that have shaped me as a person. I will still make mistakes in relationships but I feel so much more confident in myself and I'll never forget everything I've learned, even though it took me months and months to figure them all out. Sure, I have regrets- but that's where the lessons come from. I think about how lucky I am that I was forced to learn all these things at such a young age and so quickly. But I guess this is part of growing up?

PS: I'm so glad I got Bryce out of my life. It made the difference, and I feel strong again. For 6 months I felt like I didn't know myself anymore, and I hurt the people around me. But I feel like I've been given a second chance. I guess where this is going is: Jenny- I know you think I suck majorly, but at the Jungle, I felt sad seeing you, because you and I used to be best friends. So you don't have to act upon this, or even respond in any way- you don't even have to listen to this....but I'm sorry.