NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OFFICIALLY THE WORST NIGHT OF MY LIFE. so im computing, lights go out, massive thunder-storm-hail...No phone. I leave, drive through hell, go to wills in desparation to use a phone. hes not there of course. i get home, no wallet now. i just have lost almost what was 200 dollars on the way to find help. i got out of the car at chevron to use a pay phone and the fucking rain knocked me over so i jumped back in and said fuck it, went to my 'friends' house. come to find, heathers not coming home, i cant get ahold of my mom or charles, im supposed to take the kids to school tom. morning and will...not at home by 12? an addition to the top eight? fuck this. no one in this world is going to help me and when i reach out for it, bad shit happens. like my wallet gone. my what i considered boyfriend, gone. all i can do is hurt and i am so angry for it. i want my money back, i want my fucking life back. why are things wonderful and then suck worse than the immense pleasure when they began. im so sad and screwed. damn ive never been so depressed. fuck the world