Guess I have ESP or something...
Well as I predicted this morning (well I said it was a bad day already and I just knew the rest was gonna follow suite), today was an absolutely shitty day. Basically (down to the bottom line) I realized that alex really dont care/want to be my friend.
So ya I went to youth group tonight. Part of me really didnt want to go. I got in one of my moods where I dont want to do anything (depressed moods). But I felt God kind just nudging me out the door; so I went. I knew right off the bat that I wasnt going for my normal sing and praise worship tonight. I'm heartbroken and its time that I take off the mask and let my friends help me. Tonight was my night of prayer and crying in God's arms, as well as any of my friends who wanted to let me cry with them. A few did. I just cried for like an hour straight, full out crying/bawling. Its hard when it finally hits you that your friend hates you and doesnt want to be your friend anymore. But ya, I want to thank Rachel for praying with me.
Rach, your prayers touched my heart, it was like you were channelling my pain and I knew you were/are there for me. Thank you rach.
Liz, you have just been here for me in so many ways. I know that you have your own problems but you always are willing to help and listen. I hope that I have/can do the same for you. You've been my shoulder to cry on and I thank you for that.
Seth, thank you for listening tonight even though I know you didnt want to. It means a lot to me that you would put my need over yours. I really appreciate it. Ummm...rach could you make sure you relay this to him?
To everyone else, thank you for your hugs and support. I am gonna need your strength to get through the next few months because of a decision I made. Please stay with me.
So ya I went to youth group tonight. Part of me really didnt want to go. I got in one of my moods where I dont want to do anything (depressed moods). But I felt God kind just nudging me out the door; so I went. I knew right off the bat that I wasnt going for my normal sing and praise worship tonight. I'm heartbroken and its time that I take off the mask and let my friends help me. Tonight was my night of prayer and crying in God's arms, as well as any of my friends who wanted to let me cry with them. A few did. I just cried for like an hour straight, full out crying/bawling. Its hard when it finally hits you that your friend hates you and doesnt want to be your friend anymore. But ya, I want to thank Rachel for praying with me.
Rach, your prayers touched my heart, it was like you were channelling my pain and I knew you were/are there for me. Thank you rach.
Liz, you have just been here for me in so many ways. I know that you have your own problems but you always are willing to help and listen. I hope that I have/can do the same for you. You've been my shoulder to cry on and I thank you for that.
Seth, thank you for listening tonight even though I know you didnt want to. It means a lot to me that you would put my need over yours. I really appreciate it. Ummm...rach could you make sure you relay this to him?
To everyone else, thank you for your hugs and support. I am gonna need your strength to get through the next few months because of a decision I made. Please stay with me.