when you least expect it.
it's just too many cliches, ya know?
be careful what you wish for.
it'll happen when you least expect it?
too cliche that you rarely ever pay attention to it.
that you don't want to pay attention to it.
it seems so unnecessary.
ha.
fancy that.
turns out there Is some truth in all that jazz.
for one thing, be contented.
fellas take up time.
and strength.
and sanity.
and we only get so much ya know?
nevertheless, i'm pretty sure i'm enjoying myself
some of the time, anyway.
and yet, it seems to be more than that lately.
like there has to be some sort of direction
for everything
and everyone.
otherwise, they don't even want to try.
i guess i picked sth up from the boys along the way, but i just don't get why we can't just be content with the here and the now?
why must there be so many questions?
so many tests.
about the future.
when it's not even here yet.
either that, or we're testing the present.
just to see.
just to annoy.
just to keep me on my toes.
*breathe*
and it's hard.
a lot of it.
school.
church.
keeping a hold on things, before i let go, and they just keep running.
but i have friends.
and they keep me grounded. safe. laughing. busy.
