i probably sound insanely high right now, but im not. i just have a cold.
So i dont normally go on this anymore, but for some reason i feel the need to tell my thoughts. So here we go.
I went home this weekend and didn't tell anyone. And by anyone, i mean anyone. Not even my family. I just went straight to mike's house and literally stayed there for 3 days. And i lied...I told erica because i wanted to FINALLY meet her bf and just catch up on shit with her.
But its not that i didnt want to see my friends/family. I just really needed to get away from school and go somewhere where i didnt need to worry about ANYTHING. And whenever i come home, i obviously want to see the fam but i feel guilty whenever i leave because i feel like i should be spending all my time with them because my mom consistently gives me money. And with friends, i always try to make time to see everyone and that just stresses me out when i only have a short period of time to do so. So i made this trip just about me and i was selfish and did what I WANTED TO DO and it made me happy. I am home for spring break in about 2 weeks, so then is when i will obviously hang out with everyone. School was just stressing me out and i needed to relax. And i feel a million times better now.
I am sorry if anyone reads this and hates me. I didnt mean to deliberately not talk to anyone specifically. I just needed a weekend for me. Not that anyone actually cares haha
ANYWAY i'm just excited to get through these next two weeks and not worry about things so much and just be happy to almost be on a week break.
I mainly miss the sun. All i want is there to be sun. And warmth. BEACH.
Taking a deep breath can do wonders for a person. Have you actually ever tried it? Like a legit, wholesome, deep deep breath? The kind of breath that just takes in everything that stresses you, and pushes out those same things so far away that they don't bother you for awhile? If not, you should try it. Lately that seems to be the one thing keeping me from stabbing myself in the eye with a pen. There's something about a good deep breath that just puts your mind and body at ease for atleast a few minutes (if not more) and lets you relax. I'm constantly pissed and stressed about things. School, roommates, lack of money, mike, everything. But with a deep breath comes some sort of relief that i may actually live to see another day, ha.
If you haven't already, i suggest reading Chelsea Handler's book "Are you there vodka? It's me, Chelsea." I have never read 100 pages of a book so fast in my life. I love it and i feel better about myself because i am actually taking the time to read and not sit on facebook for hours and hours. Even though its not profound shit, it's very enjoyable.
good entry.
i need to finish writing this paper.
love, je.
I went home this weekend and didn't tell anyone. And by anyone, i mean anyone. Not even my family. I just went straight to mike's house and literally stayed there for 3 days. And i lied...I told erica because i wanted to FINALLY meet her bf and just catch up on shit with her.
But its not that i didnt want to see my friends/family. I just really needed to get away from school and go somewhere where i didnt need to worry about ANYTHING. And whenever i come home, i obviously want to see the fam but i feel guilty whenever i leave because i feel like i should be spending all my time with them because my mom consistently gives me money. And with friends, i always try to make time to see everyone and that just stresses me out when i only have a short period of time to do so. So i made this trip just about me and i was selfish and did what I WANTED TO DO and it made me happy. I am home for spring break in about 2 weeks, so then is when i will obviously hang out with everyone. School was just stressing me out and i needed to relax. And i feel a million times better now.
I am sorry if anyone reads this and hates me. I didnt mean to deliberately not talk to anyone specifically. I just needed a weekend for me. Not that anyone actually cares haha
ANYWAY i'm just excited to get through these next two weeks and not worry about things so much and just be happy to almost be on a week break.
I mainly miss the sun. All i want is there to be sun. And warmth. BEACH.
Taking a deep breath can do wonders for a person. Have you actually ever tried it? Like a legit, wholesome, deep deep breath? The kind of breath that just takes in everything that stresses you, and pushes out those same things so far away that they don't bother you for awhile? If not, you should try it. Lately that seems to be the one thing keeping me from stabbing myself in the eye with a pen. There's something about a good deep breath that just puts your mind and body at ease for atleast a few minutes (if not more) and lets you relax. I'm constantly pissed and stressed about things. School, roommates, lack of money, mike, everything. But with a deep breath comes some sort of relief that i may actually live to see another day, ha.
If you haven't already, i suggest reading Chelsea Handler's book "Are you there vodka? It's me, Chelsea." I have never read 100 pages of a book so fast in my life. I love it and i feel better about myself because i am actually taking the time to read and not sit on facebook for hours and hours. Even though its not profound shit, it's very enjoyable.
good entry.
i need to finish writing this paper.
love, je.