and the award goes to...
I guess he still has no idea that I know he's been lying to me. I ask him about it every now and then and he lies. Every time, looks me right in the eye and lies. Why? Like I'm fucking stupid. Why on earth do people lie about shit that is no big deal? That, to me, is when it becomes a big deal. I don't know who keeps a better straight face. I've been doing a good job not mentioning anything. I keep hoping that maybe he'll mention something on his own and he doesn't. Then I hear things like "It makes me feel like you don't trust me." "Don't you trust me?" "I don't know how to prove to you that I'm not like the guys who..." I know you could prove it. How about stop fucking lying to me. Why am I expected to just keep throwing trust around when it is not deserved? Every time he does this shit it makes me feel so insanely unattractive. Some days I think he'll be here forever and other days I just wish for this bullshit to dissipate.