my daughter
it amazes me to find out what my oldest daughter really thinks about me.it makes me feel sick to be honest.she puts on either a happy or irritable facade.she thinks i don't know much.she forgets that i was a teenager just a little bit ago,and that i travelled down a path alot windier.she perceives little thing about me,and blows them out of proportion,without ever once asking.and i don't ask much,i know i won't get a straight answer alot of the time.
she wonders why we arn't close,and makes fun of it at the same time. maybe if she was more open,i would be too. i try to give her the world.i don't ask more then is the norm of her,to keep up her end of deal..skool,dishes,her room,occasion babysitting,not fighting with her brother.she thinks she has it so bad.that all i think about is Russ. it's so not true,she doesn't even know.from her end,she doesn't even care.it's like walking a tightrope with her.she'll just roll her eyes and go to her room.her friends make her happier then her family does.it's so sad. i love my kids more then this world. i give her nice things,some very expensive things,and she disses me for it it.says it's what 'i' think is from a 'fashionable store'. i never knew a $500 gift could be unfashionable.maybe i shouldn't give her anything so she'd appreciate what i have done for her.she contemplated suicide.she has a stone face,stays behind her wall.she could be dead now,and i never even saw it coming.where am i going wrong?i try to be as open with her as a mom should be.there's such a fine line there as to how much of a friend one can be to thier young teenage daughter.i try to do things with her that she's interested in,but i can't just be a buddy,and let her do whatever.what lessons would she learn from that? i let her make her own choices,i don't push.she's so intelligent,and beautiful,and talented.she doesn't realize her potential.maybe it's a trend to disrespect your parents these days.
she wonders why we arn't close,and makes fun of it at the same time. maybe if she was more open,i would be too. i try to give her the world.i don't ask more then is the norm of her,to keep up her end of deal..skool,dishes,her room,occasion babysitting,not fighting with her brother.she thinks she has it so bad.that all i think about is Russ. it's so not true,she doesn't even know.from her end,she doesn't even care.it's like walking a tightrope with her.she'll just roll her eyes and go to her room.her friends make her happier then her family does.it's so sad. i love my kids more then this world. i give her nice things,some very expensive things,and she disses me for it it.says it's what 'i' think is from a 'fashionable store'. i never knew a $500 gift could be unfashionable.maybe i shouldn't give her anything so she'd appreciate what i have done for her.she contemplated suicide.she has a stone face,stays behind her wall.she could be dead now,and i never even saw it coming.where am i going wrong?i try to be as open with her as a mom should be.there's such a fine line there as to how much of a friend one can be to thier young teenage daughter.i try to do things with her that she's interested in,but i can't just be a buddy,and let her do whatever.what lessons would she learn from that? i let her make her own choices,i don't push.she's so intelligent,and beautiful,and talented.she doesn't realize her potential.maybe it's a trend to disrespect your parents these days.