heroin overdose.
soo let me just get this out there. nobody really realizes whats going on or what its doing to you or others while your doing it. until someone gets hurt thats when you realize to stop. well people need to learn that when people are telling you to stop doing something becuase your gonna fuck yourself over in the end you need to stop. some people just dont get it. and it really sucks. they can be HUGE parts in peoples lives. sometimes they hate that person but yet changed there life forever. everything you do is a part in your life and someone elses. you can never go back and change the day or years. walking down the street saying hi to someone.. your affecting there life. it can be the tiniest thing but some still dont realize what there doing to you or others. honestly its scary i9 hung out with taht kid for like 3 months. i dont wanna talk about anything in taht 3 months. but it was a huge part in my life that now i cant even like talk to the kid about becasue hes gone. i at least wanted to tell him that i didnt hate him i just didnt have respect for him or anything. i dont kow, i learned not to tell anyone you hate them becuase you really dont its jsut anger built up inside you. and you shouldnt really say you hate anyone becvause once there gone you cant apologize. i have thsi like guilt inside me cause after i just told him i hated him andnever wanted to talk to him again. and i talked soo much shit about him and now hes jsut gone. like honestly. i dont know but its pretty bad, if i had one thing to say to him before he lfeft. id just say i dont know. i wouldnt say anything jus tlike maybe a slight hug and a cya but i dont know. im reall ylike torn up. if im like this for the week. jsut dont give me a hug or shit just say hi and smile. please,. thanks but i dont know, but this whole thing has really made me think about living and drugs and death and everything. like seirously live your life to the fullest. you shouldnt let this shit take you down. were what 15, 16 , 17 years old. lets go. its so much fun out there. theres no need to ruien our lives now. honestly. lets go. i dont know if this has affected you or reading this i dont know. but he changed my lifee in the biggest way right now and now hes gone.
r.i.p. chris miracle
october 2, 2005