Oct 14, 2017 16:34
People keep asking me why I'm celibate, so I feel that I have to get it off my chest.
I have been celibate for a year now. I dated someone for three months last year and when I felt it wasn't working out, I left and became celibate once again.
People keep asking, "Why don't you have sex?" or "Why don't you WANT TO have sex?"
Well, I'd say the reason is simple, but it's really not.
All my life I've struggled with getting close to people, especially when it came to forming long-lasting relationships. I don't have a 'type' either, I think the whole idea of having a type, really limits you to what's out there. I digress, I need to form a BOND something that not only attracts my eye but my mind and my heart -- I guess you can just call it GROWTH.
I refuse offers from good people who want to date me because I am not ready and I know that in this society a man is not going to want to date a celibate woman (unfortunate, but true.)
That's not to say that if I met someone and had an intense bond, I would rule out the option. I would still proceed with caution. After many young and wild encounters in my 20's (that were fun while they lasted), I've realized that finding a quality partner is very few and far in between. For even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light.
I put my heart before sexual interest.