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rather dissapointed. went to get my clit hood pierced today. due to a few supposedly rather large veins i cant get it done. i cant see them tho...*suspicous*
got my lip pierced again instead. ooo
sometimes i forget how desperately unhappy i am. im scared of myself. i dont want to die today. i try and be happy. i get these horribly scary happy moments when i feel like im going to explode and cry. i just want to call ricky and tell him how much i love him and i want to hug my brother and hug him and hug him. and then it goes away and im just as lost as before.
got my lip pierced again instead. ooo
sometimes i forget how desperately unhappy i am. im scared of myself. i dont want to die today. i try and be happy. i get these horribly scary happy moments when i feel like im going to explode and cry. i just want to call ricky and tell him how much i love him and i want to hug my brother and hug him and hug him. and then it goes away and im just as lost as before.