sick
I hate being sick
Friday night was fun, Katie and I went out and it was good but then around 11 30 or so I started to feel shitty so I came home...and then from about 1am-7pm I was barfing my head off every thirty minutes or so.
I was ok most of the day Saturday, I didn’t barf but I still felt gross so I just slept a ton...and then today I felt fine when I woke up, and I got coffee with Katie. But then I came home and was exhausted. All day I've been bored but way too tired to do anything, and my stomach still feels weird. It blows. I hate just sitting at home. I do it too much these days. I hate going through social withdrawals, they are the worst and I have a feeling it is going to be this way for a while. Part of it has to do with the fact that I don’t drink, and now most of my friends do, I don't know if I would even call them friends anymore...acquaintances maybe?...which is fine...except that is all they really do. It's not like I refuse to hang out with people who drink, that is stupid...but it's more like people stop enjoying your company if you're not into it like they are...which is incredibly stupid. I don't hang out with Zach, Drew, Spencer or any of them anymore really because they are too preoccupied with other people now, or rather girls I should say, and they are all into that kind of thing now to I guess. The last time I really hung out with them was Christmas break and all that we did was get high...and it was just me drew and Zach, and to be completely honest it wasn’t even that fun. I don’t like getting high, it just feels gross and I'm over it. I can't promise I’ll never do it again, but I really have no desire to anytime soon.
I don't know, thinking about this leads me to believe that U of P is a better option than PSU just because it's a privet school that not everyone gets into (unlike PSU)...and also the application isn’t just give me your address and transcripts...you have to actually write essays and shit...what this all implies is more likely than not U of P will have people there who are there because they care...not because they want to waste their parents money.
Hopefully I’ll just get into Seattle
Ok anyway
I'm really not trying to be judgmental here, although I know I am a little, but I’m ready to meet more people who hold purpose in their lives.
It’s something everybody could have, but not everyone chooses to.
Friday night was fun, Katie and I went out and it was good but then around 11 30 or so I started to feel shitty so I came home...and then from about 1am-7pm I was barfing my head off every thirty minutes or so.
I was ok most of the day Saturday, I didn’t barf but I still felt gross so I just slept a ton...and then today I felt fine when I woke up, and I got coffee with Katie. But then I came home and was exhausted. All day I've been bored but way too tired to do anything, and my stomach still feels weird. It blows. I hate just sitting at home. I do it too much these days. I hate going through social withdrawals, they are the worst and I have a feeling it is going to be this way for a while. Part of it has to do with the fact that I don’t drink, and now most of my friends do, I don't know if I would even call them friends anymore...acquaintances maybe?...which is fine...except that is all they really do. It's not like I refuse to hang out with people who drink, that is stupid...but it's more like people stop enjoying your company if you're not into it like they are...which is incredibly stupid. I don't hang out with Zach, Drew, Spencer or any of them anymore really because they are too preoccupied with other people now, or rather girls I should say, and they are all into that kind of thing now to I guess. The last time I really hung out with them was Christmas break and all that we did was get high...and it was just me drew and Zach, and to be completely honest it wasn’t even that fun. I don’t like getting high, it just feels gross and I'm over it. I can't promise I’ll never do it again, but I really have no desire to anytime soon.
I don't know, thinking about this leads me to believe that U of P is a better option than PSU just because it's a privet school that not everyone gets into (unlike PSU)...and also the application isn’t just give me your address and transcripts...you have to actually write essays and shit...what this all implies is more likely than not U of P will have people there who are there because they care...not because they want to waste their parents money.
Hopefully I’ll just get into Seattle
Ok anyway
I'm really not trying to be judgmental here, although I know I am a little, but I’m ready to meet more people who hold purpose in their lives.
It’s something everybody could have, but not everyone chooses to.