bleh.
Well i got home around 8:30 tonite. Mom thinks that the van is messing up again, she is kind of stressed. I know she is going through alot lately with my great grandma dieing and everything, she went into a coma 2 days ago. hmm.. i am cooking dinner so there is one less thing she has got to worry about. I spent all day with Casey today and we tried to watch Twister, Lake Placid, and 50 First Dates. .. fun :) church was kind of boring. Jill is talking about pushing band practice up till 4:30!! that is 30 minutes less i have with my boo!!! o well.. i will get over it.. i have alot of work to do this week b4 casey comes over, i want it to be perfect. i want his first time at MY house to be good. This will be the first time he has met my family and everyone. I know his family really good because i am ALWAYS over there but he never comes here. Mainly because i never make plans for him to . I have never been one who was willing for people to see my family and my house, i don't know.. i think its bc i try to keep this place, separate from my life. My home life is not to God awful (at the moment) so.. who knows.. i am thinking that Sunday will be good. Easter egg hunt, grill out, few movies, meet my family... i think it will be fun. I saw casey's hair for the first time today. It looks good. He put way to much gel in it this morning but i fixed it for him and it looked really nice, im glad he got it cut. hmm. There has been something bothering me lately...but i don' t know really how to explain it. I think i ask to much of people. Since i have been in Griffin i am always finding a way to be in Jackson. Lately i .. i don't know.. i know i must get on Elizabeth's nerves because i am ALWAYS there.. well maybe not so much her as her dad but i don't know.. i don't really know if she would tell me if she was tired of me being there.. i don't know but i am taking a break from going as much so that her dad does not thing i mooch off of them or something. And .. i am ALWAYS asking for Caseys parents and family and him to do something for me... like i always get a ride from them to and from places.. usually mutual places that casey and i are going but still none the less .. a ride. I am over there alot too.. i don' t know.. i just tend to think that sometimes i am a bother to people.. i think i will stay at home more the next few weeks .. I am supposed to be getting a job soon, but i kind of want to wait until my car is fixed. (which should be soon)... mom said on the ride home tonite that i need to make a plan and be organized and everything next year bc i have alot of honors classes next year and... not to spend all my time on the phone.. i don't know how next year will be but i hope i have a job, a car, and going to jackson schools and church, and have my Casey. I know that i will always have my casey tho.. for ever and always i know that already.. that is something i don't really have to worry about.. but ... i do worry .. not that something will go wrong with us.. just that i won't get to spend as much time with him as i would want to yano??.. but any hoo.. i am going to go now...
much love
Amanda