Sorry I need to get this off my chest

[pinkputty69]

I'm so preoccupied right now. I haven't been able to focus on anything lately because I'm too worried about things coming up. I really don't want to go to Europe this summer. I won't be able to talk to any one in the U.S. from June 10th- July 17th. Then I'll come back and be living in East Lansing. I DONT WANT TO MOVE. it sucks so bad. I'm not going to know anyone there and I will have nothing to do. Then i move even farther away to go to a college i don't want to go to. i keep hurting the one i love because of that- i wish i would stop that. All i can think about is leaving and how bad itll hurt and how i dont want to deal with not talking to certain people and how im going to lose everything ive ever known. i wish i could change this all.
I love you so very much i apologize for everything ive been putting you through lately. You mean everything to me