why do i only update this when im upset!?
well, i am goddamnit.
and tired too. Im just fucking tired. Why do i have to work my ass off at school, and when im not at school, i have to work my ass off to keep my head above water (monetarily), and yet i live with this guy who doesnt do shit, and yet his parents STILL pay for everything for him. I shit you not, today he made two friends GO TO CLASS with him. COME ON. how is he supposed to be serious about school if he needs to have his buddies hold his hand all the way to the door. Its fucking ridiculous. In three years of school, he has passed 5 classes max. And yet he gets pissed at me for pointing out that he will probably fail again since its a quarter of the way into the semester and he STILL Hasent even OPENED his math book, and my bio book, which we are supposed to share ALSO has never been borrowed for him to do any work. Its such fucking bullshit. I know part of me is just jelous, but part of me is also extremely angry. This is our life. He wants me to be with him forever, and i do too, but i want to be with someone who has some personal initiative and drive! i mean jesus, in 10 years will i still have to be waking him up myself and kicking his ass so he will go to work!? and how does he EVER think anyone will hire him or he will EVER be able to get into gradschool with his gpa. Gad, i could punch someone or myself. This is what bugs me the worst, is he doesnt give a shit, yet im ready to kill myself over it. GOD. DAMN. IT.
and tired too. Im just fucking tired. Why do i have to work my ass off at school, and when im not at school, i have to work my ass off to keep my head above water (monetarily), and yet i live with this guy who doesnt do shit, and yet his parents STILL pay for everything for him. I shit you not, today he made two friends GO TO CLASS with him. COME ON. how is he supposed to be serious about school if he needs to have his buddies hold his hand all the way to the door. Its fucking ridiculous. In three years of school, he has passed 5 classes max. And yet he gets pissed at me for pointing out that he will probably fail again since its a quarter of the way into the semester and he STILL Hasent even OPENED his math book, and my bio book, which we are supposed to share ALSO has never been borrowed for him to do any work. Its such fucking bullshit. I know part of me is just jelous, but part of me is also extremely angry. This is our life. He wants me to be with him forever, and i do too, but i want to be with someone who has some personal initiative and drive! i mean jesus, in 10 years will i still have to be waking him up myself and kicking his ass so he will go to work!? and how does he EVER think anyone will hire him or he will EVER be able to get into gradschool with his gpa. Gad, i could punch someone or myself. This is what bugs me the worst, is he doesnt give a shit, yet im ready to kill myself over it. GOD. DAMN. IT.