Yay!
Currently Reading: The Princess Who Believed in Fairy Tales: A Story for Modern Times by Marcia Grad
(First of all, my LJ is one year old today! I can't believe it. I'll write a really long reflective entry when I get more than five minutes, but that's not tonight. So you'll just have to wait for that.)
I'm so going to do it. I'm going to Arizona and I'm doing it all by myself.
For those of you who think I've lost it - no, I'm not quite ready to quit my job, pack up my stuff (and my felines) and say goodbye to Michigan and all that's here - friends, family and too many memories to even think about. But I am going on vacation by myself. It'll be the first time ever. I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't a bit nervous, but I'm trusting God on this. This trip will be the beginning of something - either the beginning of a new life in Arizona or new questions about what God will have for me next.
So that's going to happen in February and I'm thrilled.
In other news, I had dinner with a whole bunch of college friends on Saturday (as I may have mentioned in my previous post). It went pretty well, but I definitely have to say that I felt the divide between the marrieds and the singles. No one was mean or anything like that, but it's strange to see people begin to cross over that line. Because despite the best of intentions, they've entered a new phase of their lives and there is definitely a separation. And it's a place that I can't relate to, anymore than they can relate to the desire that I have to give into self-pity and wonder what's wrong with me. I'm twenty-six after all and two people have recently told me discouraging things about finding my future husband. One said "there's someone out there - if you ever find him". One said (in reply to my comment that I'm actually learning - albeit slowly - to be okay with waiting) "if you wait, they won't want you by the time you're ready".
Thank heavens I believe in God and His ultimate plan for every aspect of my life or I might have come home tonight and gotten really drunk. Of course, I wasn't in a situation where I could really explain how my faith fits into that. You know, being PC and all that garbage.
But it struck me how cynical they both were. Don't get me wrong, I have my cynical moments. After all, I've had to watch a lot of people find someone when I can't seem to do it. As I watch my biological clock begin to tick, I get a little upset. But in this season of my life, God is using me in so many other ways. Ways that I couldn't be used if I was married or even seriously dating. Letting go is amazing, because it's so freeing. And the amazing women I've met in my Bible study have only reinforced the idea that you can be a strong, successful, single woman.
So I just discovered that I have a crazy weekend ahead of me. That's fun - suddenly I have a social life again! Woo hoo. I suppose I don't need all that much sleep anyway.
Off to help Mom and get some writing done - catch ya later!
~S
PS: KC, that situation got resolved and quite easily. Call me when you get a few minutes and we'll chat about it. : )