the future
i hate to admit it, but the future is starting to really freak me out. where should i be going to go to college? what should i study? i mean it only determines pretty much the rest of my life. med seems so interesting but it is so much school..school that seems like it will potentially delay the rest of my life. i want to get out of sterling heights right now..far away maybe? but would i regret going far away? would i miss home even though it isnt so great right now? or what if i just stay in michigan..its less expensive...but boring. i need space, a lot of it right now. what is worth trying for anymore? some things seem pointless or so far off that it just is not worth it. maybe this is just the whole patience issue again. alyson and i emailed a place to maybe volunteer. im really hoping that they respond soon. i need a new buddy.