I dont get it
I dont know what to do with myself anymore. One minute I'm happy and loving life and the next I wanna drive my car into a cement wall.
One week I'm si free and the next I've cut every inch of my skin.
One day I don't have a care in the world and the next day I'm popping pills with alcohol to try and make the pain stop.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
Will I ever be normal?
Things wouldn't be so bad if the feelings would stay the same. If I woke up every morning hating life then fine, I can live with that. Or even if I woke up every morning loving life, I can live with that too. But I hate not knowing how my day is gunna be. I hate wondering if things are gunna stay ok or if for no reason at all they are gunna turn into shit.
Do you ever cry for no reason? Sometimes I just want to cry. I want to be held tight and just cry. I want to bawl my eyes out and have someone there to hold me and tell me that everything is gunna be ok.
One week I'm si free and the next I've cut every inch of my skin.
One day I don't have a care in the world and the next day I'm popping pills with alcohol to try and make the pain stop.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
Will I ever be normal?
Things wouldn't be so bad if the feelings would stay the same. If I woke up every morning hating life then fine, I can live with that. Or even if I woke up every morning loving life, I can live with that too. But I hate not knowing how my day is gunna be. I hate wondering if things are gunna stay ok or if for no reason at all they are gunna turn into shit.
Do you ever cry for no reason? Sometimes I just want to cry. I want to be held tight and just cry. I want to bawl my eyes out and have someone there to hold me and tell me that everything is gunna be ok.