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[pinkpoodle87]

I feel like I'm making a mistake. It seems like everyone (except Megan and Michael) are against the decision I've made. I know that I can still change my mind- but I don't know if I could live with that decision. I know Tessa is against my decision, she thinks I'm making a huge mistake and today she made me feel quite shitty about it. I really wish Megan was here... I'm sure she'd know what to say, but she's not. I need to learn to do things on my own... I can't always rely on Jason, Josh, Megan, Michael, and Tessa to fix everything for me. I use to rely on Nick to make everything better, and he showed just how much 'better' he could make things- but I can't help but ask for help on this one... Maybe they're all right- they can't all be wrong... can they? Or maybe they're thinking to selfishly.. after all at one point I was told 'if you do this- it means things will change- then we can't do as much'... that's not really thinking things through.. I've found just as many positives as negatives to this situation. And sence the person who is suppose to be helping me isn't, this is souly my decision... I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!

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