soooo
got the results of all the labwork i had done, its what i had expected (which wasn't good) but at least i somewhat prepared myself for this i went into it thinking the worst!!! i dont think it sunk in yet really...its funny i know whats coming but i dont know how long it will take to get there or how bad it will be i thought about researching it but decided not to for now..tommy is aware of the fact i had to get labwork done but i havent told him the results yet..hes dealt with so much lately i dont know how much more he can take!!! i thought writing would clear my head but its just clustering everything together..maybe it wasnt such a good idea! on a good note my mom is checking to see her blood type to see if need be she would be a good donor which is hopeful we already know tommy and my dad arent..but thats a little bit down the road!! i wont let this consume my life there are so many things wonderful in this world and i chose to focus on that. : )