what a tease!
Why is it that life must tantalize you and tease you with things you know from the start will never happen? i hate those false moments of hope that occur, give a fake sense of happiness, and then pulls the rug right out from under you in a matter of seconds. I guess every once in a while there is bound to be moments when certain parts of your life come crashing down on you all at once, and it seems like such a crappy turnout. What you thought was promising and prosperous in fact turned out to be boring, dull, and unproductive, like your life was wasted away for that 4.15 hours spent. I honestly feel as confused right now as a gay man attempting to come out of the closet! But i guess the false sense of hope is what keeps us going, and when we fail, or it doesnt work out... it gives us enough anger or grief to strive for another hopeless whim. Maybe one day i'll learn the secret... or maybe adopt some new principles such as the often uttered, "if you have no hope or aspiration you will never be dissapointed". However, im not that dumb and know that what i want out of life cannot be attained by simply moping at a little letdown, in fact it was beautiful in that it gave me more hope to continue on... angrily for now.. but my anger will soon subsidize to hope and the awful cycle will repeat itself.
* this inspired moment stems from a false friendship and foundation of feelings that i learned will never exist so long as there are many more competing for the same thing... I WILL NOT COMPETE FOR SOMETHING THAT SHOULD JUST COME TO BE!
* this inspired moment stems from a false friendship and foundation of feelings that i learned will never exist so long as there are many more competing for the same thing... I WILL NOT COMPETE FOR SOMETHING THAT SHOULD JUST COME TO BE!